The Harangue of a 16 Year Old.

The End.

2005-10-06T03:23:00.000-04:00

Final chapter in the story that is my 16 year old life......
should i really change??
can i really change??
only time will tell...

for now... a blurry of emotions ensue.....
i know my friends have been worried for me (those who suspect something is up...) but there really is not much i can do about it...
i want to say dont worry, and i really do wish that no one worries about me... mostly because im just not that important in the grand scheme of things anyways..... but also because there really is no point... i try so hard... but... it always ends up the same...
regardless... those who worry, dont... and those who are oblivious, it is better this way... n'est pas?

perhaps a repeat of my 21st birthday will occur again... at least this time... .... no one will be around to see??

anyways..... the reason why im not going to post here is completely different from what i am writing... but i cant help but let feelings of one thing flow into the other.... so perhaps later on i will share with you why i decide no longer to post here... (it should be quite funny) but... yeah...

ask me for my new blog if you care to read...

Goodbye.

Stressed

2005-10-03T17:58:00.000-04:00

Offical start of work (yet again... this time, taking on full responsibilities of my job) and the 1st emotion that i feel is stressed.... i always have this feeling that i cant/wont be able to do what is expected of me, and always it turns out fine but this time... i have a feeling that i might have bitten off more than i could chew.... why? well mostly cuz the training on the system & the actual work being done has this big ass gap... i cant draw the linkage yet so even though i "learend" how to use the system, i dont really "know" how to use the system... and it doesnt really help the fact that they say oh to do this job you need to do this this and this, but doesnt eactly show me how to do it... .:S i usually learn at a pretty quick rate, but somehow this time i just feel overwhelmed..

mebbe perhaps its not because i already have trouble doing my own job, but also cuz im assigned this project that's also due at the end of the week.... :S sigh..... i dunno, im trying my best but there just isnt enough time in the day to get everything done, especially when it will take me all this extra time to familiar myself with all these things.... :S and my trainer is always busy doing her own stuff so i its not like i can just have her hover over me so i can fire off questions whenever i want (which is the best way for me to learn)... oy... im guessing why there hasnt been any returning coop students is partly cuz of this.... there's no learning curve! its like bam okay here's all you have to do... just do it... :S (& then realize that you dont have access to the important systems that you have to use, therefore slowing down your productivity to 0 while deadlines are rushing in...)

anyways, if i crack soon, you'll know why.... bleh, i already feel that i am starting to become short tempered again :S which isnt good at all... oy... need to just calm down & relax.... (if i can find the time :( )

glad yammers called today.... helped me put off all the troubles of work for 5 mins.... and gave me a so needed boast in serotonin....

sigh... oh well.. life goes on i guess....

Hrmmmm....

2005-10-01T09:52:00.000-04:00

So mentally & physically exhausted..... busy everyday doing everything... i can no longer think straight... or maintain any thoughts in my head... feeling slightly detatched from the reality around me...

Whirlwind of emotions = unable to enjoy what i have...

What will become of us in the end?

Only time will tell.

Guys PMS too... Luckily, I have my Yammers

2005-09-27T18:21:00.000-04:00

1st day of work... what should i say?? it was... most uneventful... the lack
passwords made it impossible to sign onto my system.. so instead i went onto
the company's site and sifted through all the products i was in charge of...
i also took the liberty to finish some of my EPK stuff (think online
training manuals with exams..) to help speed up.. the morning went by really
quick but as soon as lunch hit... it literally took forever for the day to
go by :S i need to do work soooo bad!!!

okay so onto my baked potato-ism: this really really nice chinese guy came
over to introduce himself and we started to chat.. which was great, because
i needed to meet more ppl... hehe & being the semi-lazyass that i am..
walking around to talk to random strangers just doesnt appeal to me (SHHHH..
i wave to strangers on the street, but thats completely different!) anyways
after he left i got this email from some random guy telling me about the
events happening @ the office.. and i was like wow, what a nice guy... so i
replied saying that i will go and "formally" introduce myself etc... turns
out it was the guy who i was talking to who sent me the email... i made a
huge fool of myself.. lol.. he said he didnt know how to respond to my
email.. lol.. anyways he was a nice guy so i guess it didnt matter much...
but still.. not exactly the best 1st impression ever

next story! so yeah, when i got to my mom's work place, it was only like 5
30 and she didnt get off till like 10 after 6... so obviously i had to
wait.. so i spent some time reading my psych book.. but by the time i was
done, it still wasnt time for her to get off work yet so i was sort of
getting impatient... (its like this everyday but cuz of the horrible
weather... it really annoyed me) so anyways when she comes out i was asking
how come she's always the last person to leave and she got offended and was
like im not the last person to leave, there's tones of ppl inside, etc
etc... so i was pissed off.. i mean wth... i wait for her for like 45 mins
EVERYDAY! and ontop of that, cuz i have to drive her to work, i get to work
like half an hour before im scheduled to work.. so really, its like almost 2
hours of my day that im giving up for her.. and never once did i say
anything about how much of a bother it was.. why did she have to get all
offended when i suggested that she try to leave slightly ahead of
everyone...?? anyways long story short... the car ride home was in
silence... :S

Ohh did i mention that im offically sick?? yeah.. the re-injestion of meat
has proven to be slightly fatal.. :S my mom made bbq pork the other night..
and usually i love bbq home style (we add honey.. hehe) but as i was eating
it, i felt like throwing up... which was totally not a good sign... and
ontop of that, the chicken that i had from the night before wasnt being
digested properly.. so pretty much my body was trying to reject every trace
of meat from its system through any opening that was convenient... :S i
managed to hold everything in, but it was sick...

anyways... normally none of this stuff would actually effect me that much,
but ive been way too happy recently... so pretty much my body was trying to
balance itself again :S and the rain really didnt help either...

yeah so when i got home... i accidentally smashed my ps2 controller..
what a day... ~_~"

things eventually got better, that is someone made it better... and i have
to say... i was pretty impressed... usually when im in a slump.. it takes
awhile for me to get out of it... but Yammers did an amazing job...
we eventually went out cuz i was hungry & my house smelled like the rotting
death that is durian... :S

and WoW... i would have to say the conversations that we had was prolly one
of the most stimulating conversations ive had in a long time... kudos to you
Yammers!(if your reading this, wanna suggest a cooler name?? LOL...)

anyways, yeah was out till like 3 in the morning... which should have been a
big no no considering how i had to wake up @ 7 the next morning, but it was
SO worth it... time well spent... time damn well spent..hehehe, and even
though i had to drink an extra large cup of green tea this morning to keep
myself awake, it was a good choice.. hehe (also cuz i dont drink coffee,
therefore when i actually do have caffeine in my system.. it works wonders!
heheh

yup... ubber long post on my part.. i know i promised to make it shorter,
but im pretty sure most ppl just skim or dont even bother reading.. so it
works out.. teheheh!

Another Late Night Posting

2005-09-25T04:25:00.000-04:00

mmmmm late night postings.... feels damn good to be fully awake @ 4 30 in the morning!!! skool has taken my LIFE away from me and now i have it back!! hehehehe....

had an awesome time tonight... met some pretty nice ppl and despite some random moments of awkwardness, i really did have a good time! heheh... of course there was the encounter with this cougar that started out as meh whatever into OMG stalker into LOL... i cant believe that actually happened... hehehe....

i also reacquainted myself with good ol' alcohol and clubbing!... another thing that skool has managed to deprive from me! hehe... didnt have that many and was definitely sober like all the time but still.. it was nice... just to have some in my system! hehe.. and mostly because it was JUST SO GOOD! but 6.25 for a drink... :S charge an arm and a leg..... which proves... waterloo does have the cheapest stuff around EVER!!! go 1.75 drinks! tehehehehhe..... the music wasnt that great, well some where okay but it was actually the ppl i was with that made it fun, more than the place itself.... hehe... especially when i have slightly evolved beyond the "clubbing" scene... hehe

anyways all in all good fun times.... would definitely do it again... hopefully soon! hehehehe

Sudden Changes

2005-09-24T16:20:00.000-04:00

Woo...! so i finally finished training @ work on thrusday... so excited! heheh .... friday was totally awesome... i got to go to our tech symposium @ the sheraton..... and i have to say... it was prolly the most intersting work related thing ive done ever!!! basically all the techy vendors for staples came to present their new products & stuff for the next quarter... and all the tech ppl in our stores all gathered here to listen..... ppl from all 250 stores across canada!!! how amazing is that!?!?! anyways we had like presentations every hour, and like quick breaks in between so all of yesterday i listened, ate during breaks, listened some more... and ate some more.. all day... lol... our lunch was amazing!!! we had grilled veggie penne in tomato sauce & i think grilled chicken alfredo for the main course along with unlmited fruits/bread/desert... god i love eating @ hotels! hehehe

anyways, the vendors are really generous (some of them..lol) they were giving away so much stuff during their presentations... and we were suppose to mark them on how interesting and enthusastic the presentations were, so a lot of groups did all sorts of things just to impress us... and honestly, it made a hell of a lotta difference!!! (not that i wasnt intrigued about their products before heheh) Telus was prolly the most interesting one, they made it into an interactive competition and the grand prize was soooo cool!!! it was this voice recorder things that reporters & anal ppl in lectures use.... it was so close between our group & the other, but i dropped the ball.... lol..... but i have to say, Viewsonic was prolly the most generous.... they were giving away 2 19 inch LCD mons... and their mons are like 500 bucks a piece!!!! on the other spectrum... the presentation about our own brand sucked ass.. they just stood there and lectured... for an HOUR... :S showing us stats and stuff.... who the hell cares!!! :S.... lol anyways yeah i got some pretty cool stuff, like this pen that when i shake it, the digital display changes from the date to the time.... hehe.. and this organizer thing from canon.... anyways yeah too bad i couldnt stay for the dinner & the party.... i know it would have been awesome... heheheh!

so i was right afterall.... i had my physical done this morning and my doctor told me that at my age, i shouldnt be a vegetarian because im not getting all the nutrients that i need, especially when im underweight and have thalassemia...... he suggested that i should eat at least white meat.. so i guess that's what im gonna have to do :S the guy also took like 7 tubes of blood for my blood test..... i have to say though the guy who was transfering the tubes knew his stuff, he didnt move the needle around and it didnt hurt at all.... anyways i think i got the first x-ray ever in my life.... and im pretty sure it killed half my spermies... heheheh! anyways waiting for results... hopefully i dont have anything wrong with me... :S

anyways, lastly, i know this person rarely or possibly never goes here to read, but want to thank you anyways.... you have no idea how much your support means to me...

Cry_Wolf

2005-09-17T01:09:00.000-04:00

Went to see cry wolf tonight... it was great! the ending was surprising.. sort of... i have to say, as far as suspense films go, this one was made pretty decent.. except some of the parts were kinda stupid.. lol.... anyways its a document of the start of my movie watching again! yay! heheh.... which is great... anyways suspense/thriller ppl.. go watch! (not scary at all.. lol)

anyways.... onto a more important matter.... i got paid today! yay!!! im soooooooooo excited mostly because i was broke... lol
take that! 65.75!!! heheheheh but 120% of my paycheck is going to my mom... mostly cuz i had to borrow money to pay off like bills and fund my "outtings" hehehe... lol.... anyways... yay! it feels good to be on payroll again!

anyways... now more than ever, since my "hole in my throat" incident (its starting to heal slightly, hurting less but more frequent lol) im starting to crack under the pressure of being a veggie.... its especially hard in TO when every chinese place has pretty much nothing but meat... and it doesnt help when ive spent everyday this past week having nothing but soup & congee.... which means im pretty much weak like all the time... and i wouldnt be surprised if ive lost another like 5 pounds :( and the thoughts of food keep poping up in my head.... :S of how i want to eat like EVERYTHING! :( sigh.......

anyways woo! i bought like tones of crap today @ the sample sale @ work... 7 bucks for like anti virus software, a pdf creation software, mic, headset and a day planner...... waste of money cuz i dont need any of that.. but still... 7 bucks.. couldnt resist! hehehe

p.s. i have an offical "mentor".... lol... nice!

A Hole In My Mouth?

2005-09-15T20:11:00.000-04:00

Wow... so i finally saw my doctor today... and guess what?? apparently there's a HOLE in my mouth... :S

okay 1st thing's first... so i had to change my lunch time from 12 to 1 just to see that jerk....(cuz his office opened at 1) so when i got there, the nurse was like uh he wont be in till at least 1 30, he's late... (and i was like what else is new? he's ALWAYS late) and she forced me to have lunch.. so i got back at like 1 30.. and he was STILL not there... and she was like well he never comes in later than 2 etc and i was like uh.. i start work @ 2.. and since im in training, its not like i can just go back later and make up the time :S so anyways i thought mebbe i could go after work.. and the nurse was like yeah if you dont make it before like 10 after 5, he wont see you.. and i get off work at 5.. WTF... who the hell works from 1-5 and SHOWS UP MORE THAN AN HOUR LATE!?!?!? WTF!... i was SO pissed off, not to mention my throat was completely killing me :S

okay so anyways i finally had to like leave 10 mins early to see him.... :S he litterally sees me for like 3 mins.... stupid jerk...!

so anyways his first reaction was like.. uh.. there's a big hole in your throat... i was like.... uh... and he's like its an ulcer... like a huge canker sore.... :S its like the size of a penny..... and all he did was make me buy some spray to help with the pain (cuz i cant swallow at all... everything just burns) and i have to wait until it heals by itself :( soooo much... pain!... :S

anyways..... yeah... im dying.... ive had nothing but soup and congee for 4 days.... im literally wasting away, not being able to use my most important hole.... LOL

2005-09-14T20:22:00.000-04:00

Yeah, i was bored so i decided to do more of these quizzes.... :S
I feel so sick..... well mostly just my sore throat... which has quite possibly turned strep.. (LOL.... see! im funny even when im sick! lol.. or just goofy.. hahah)

i have the worst family doctor ever... so damn far away... and now when i need to see him, he doesnt open till like 1 pm, and closes before 6 30 :S wtf!!!! i need to switch :(

anyways i think this is pretty accurate...! hehehe... my friends are always telling me i act like a 16 year old girl anyways... bwahahahah! anyways, they should msg me more often so im not so bored!!!! hehehehe....

wow.. .work.. has been like skool... so much like skool that today i actually dozed off... more than once... with my trainer sitting infront of me teaching us how to do stuff... :S well we have to go thru the manual together and well... lol... i was so sleepy that my head was jerking back and forth... and by the time that i realized that my eyes were closed.... lol.. i had to snap my head back to wake up.. so sad!! lol.... anyways... i think i need to watch crash... so i can delete it off my HD... getting full again!! :S

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Woodbine Beach Pics

2005-09-12T19:47:00.000-04:00

Left - Dead body of karen... (was afraid to tan her face, ironically, her face was the darkest part of her body at the end of the day.. hehe)
Right - Moi with the classic cheesy pose!

Left - Aftermath of karen's nap... bedhead anyone!?!? lol
Right - Beautiful sunset.....

Our attempts at building a sand castle

Other people's sandcastle vs ours.... (yes its weak, but i used only my hands! i have to say... i do great work with my hands... kenny will prolly be the only one who gets this.... after our "conversations" lol)

Left - Me & karen
Right - Me & kay

Left - The love birdies...
Right - So sad... i look so out of place beside them! (sobs!... hahahahah)

Left - "Me big Ed... Me destroy castle!"
Right - How can they say it looks like cow shit!?!? its the best looking ice cream ever!!!!

Left - I've never seen him smile so big! One of the best pics of him ever!
Right - For that split second, i actually look like im smiling naturally... one of my best pics too!

Left - Everyone's perfect smiling except me... cuz im the one taking the picture... yes i admit my mouth and hands dont work at the same time.... im such a dork! hehehe
Right - The grand finale... the family shot!

Offically the last day of summer!

2005-09-12T19:25:00.000-04:00

So kay came back from HK on sat, which meant we had enough ppl to go to my fav beach (so far... yes yes, we know grand bend is amazing... but you still have to bring me there first so.. :P) again... although the conditions were slightly irregular, we still had an amazing time!... well mostly cuz sat was freezing (for summer weather) and it was pretty cold sun morning too, but i have to say, i am ubber grateful that it warmed up so much in the afternoon.. even if the sand wasnt hot and sizzling, the way i like it... anyways... wow the four of us (kay, ed, karen & myself) really just slept for like most of the time... lol (we didnt get there till like 3ish...) but it was still great never-the-less!

We actually built a sandcastle this time and i have to say, its not as good as the other one that someone else built... but hey, all we had was the top of a big jar to use as our "tool" and a plastic bag to carry water... hehehehe... we did however manage to have the weirdest "activities" with it... lol.... we dug a hole to store the water in and ed was obsessed about turning it into a "trap" where people would walk and fall in (it was actually almost waist height.. heheh) so i decided that we should make a video of the victim falling into the trap... hehehe.. the victim being me... LOL.... it was totally awesome... we laughed so hard while filming it and afterwards when we were watching it... i of course displayed the ubber awesomeness that is my acting skills while karen... decided that she would just laugh all the way... LOL.... (and hey, it was hard acting! pretending to not know there's a hole in the ground that your about to step in when really you know there's a hole! lol)

anyways, we went to jack astor's for dinner and i have to say... it was a huge disapointment... they erradicated like half their menu and had mebbe 1 thing of veggie.. also they started charging for the salad and garlic bread and it was no longer unlimited... east sides on the other hand had free salad/garlic bread, AND tones of food for veggies (veggie = vegetarian... ) but they were lucky, we were starving by the time we got there (starving from lying in the sun all day, imagine that! hehe) so we ate like absolutely everything.. i ordered the pan garlic bread... and as fat & greasy as it is.... OMG! it was soooooo goood!!! heheh...

afterwards, i had another brilliant brain blast and brought everyone to main street to hang out "after hours"... it was great! we hung out for like 2-3 hours just sitting there drinking and talking about everything that came into mind... truely the most relaxing day ever... now i know why white ppl take vacations so seriously (as oppose to asians which spend their days off @ malls, shopping, singing k, & doing everything!) because its great to just spend the day relaxing and hanging out!!! :)

anyways, truely, it was the great last day of summer (yes i know i started work already, but whatever...! it was a good way to end the summer!) however, i have to say... i think i might be allergic to the beach... for the 2nd or possibly 3rd time now that the day after = stuffy/runny/higher than normal temperature..... i dunno why... i know i have allergies to like outside stuff... but i havent had a test yet... mebbe i should... cuz its so weird.... or mebbe its cuz ive been spending so much time inside for past decade or two that my body isnt use to a full concentrated day outside and that it's killing me... ahahahahahhaha!

pics in next post.... as for woodbine pics... since i didnt take the majority of the pics, im still waiting for the relevant people to send it to me... which might take a decade or two....! hehe

Working?

2005-09-11T00:48:00.000-04:00

Wow.. so the 1st 3 days have been amazing.... everyone is ubber nice... mebbe cuz i havent familiar myself with everyone yet/only spent time with my trainer.... but OTPP does have cooler people in general.... well, more fun anyways! heheheh
but i guess it cant really be helped, specially when the department is soooooooo big... and everyone's pretty much doing their own thing in their own cubical... (the nature of their jobs are very much individualized, completely opposite from OTPP, which is all about team/group work)

I have to say though, that they have so many benefits... !!! makes me wanna work there full time! hehehehe....

So anyways, i'll be training for the next 2 weeks.... which is like.. !_! woah! 2 weeks of training!?!? is that really necessary? but it is. :S the 1st two days were kind of easy, learning about simple stuff, but once we started training on the system.. there's so much to learn!!!!! :S its starting to get interesting now though, cuz we actually get to use the system and do things, as oppose to the 1st two days where it was just the trainer talking and us sitting down for like 2,3 hours at a time listening... and then going for a 5 min break and then rinse and repeat....

Anyways, beach tmr, hopefully the weather will hold up...! it was pretty chilly today... but its suppose to be warmer tmr....
been looking forward to it all week.... hehehe it would be a huge let down if it was too cold to go... i have to finish getting the other half of my tan!!! hehehe... i think i need to go to a nude beach though... cuz you can already see a major difference between at the waist line.... and well... the untanned me is really pale.. .hehe !

Yup, that's pretty much it... starting to get into a routine.... which isnt bad, but everyone's busy anyways :( man i miss my friends!
Also, i started taking allergy meds again.. hoping it would solve my stuffy nose problem... well so far i cant figure out whether its working or not, but i have been waking up ubber early, like at 6, and 5 30 in the morning.. so i think the meds might be making me sleep less... cuz its not like im tired and groggy when i wake up, but i get hit with random sleepiness through the day... :S

anyways... will work on updates later.... hopefully soon! hehe

Woodbine Pics

2005-09-05T11:55:00.000-04:00

The Gang

Left - Grab that ass!!
Right - The mermaid soiled himself...!

Left - Tinesha
Right - Damn Kenny & his perfectly tanned body!!! I look so pale... (sobs!)

Left - Susie, Derick, Derick's friend whom i forgot the name of... (sorry!)
Right - Wilson

The Experiment

Left - Starting attempt at a masterpiece
Right - Finished attempt at the Mermaid

Left - Cracked boobage from Kenny's inability to not breath or laugh
Right - Mermaid turned Man

Left - Realistic no? If only it was THAT big..... tehehhehe
Right - An attempt to scare the children.....

Before - Bio-chem Student
After - Horny little mer-vestite....

PS - No one was harm during this experiment, except for the eyes of the little innocent children around us... (we appologize!)

Beaches, Nature's Weapon Against the Internet!

2005-09-04T20:58:00.000-04:00

I didnt think that i could top thurs' day at center island this year... but was i sadly mistaken!!! I am totally in love with woodbine beach!!!! i dont think ive ever spent such a relaxing day without worries at all this year.... it was great... it was better than great... it was supreme!!!

Day started out with me being EARLY! i was like 20 mins early!!! if that wasnt a sign that it was going to be a perfect day, i dunno what is... tehehhee.. well i have to admit, at 1st i thought it would turn out to be a bust because of the threatening huge rain-cloud look-a-likes looming over us as me & kenny waited at the bus station... but then... a birthday miracle occured! within like a half to an hour period, the clouds disbursted and it was NOTHING BUT BRIGHT BEAUTIFUL SUN!!!!!! it was SUPREME! hehehe...

We made kenny into a mermaid... and then gave him a penis... HAHAHAH.... pics will be posted soon! and all the time, his boobs/upper body kept on cracking cuz well.. i was trying to make him laugh... lol.. and it sort of really worked.... hehehehehe and well other ppl started copying us, but they couldnt stop laughing and gave up... (laughing = unstable surface to work on = cannot sand sculp... hehe) but then we had to take away the penis as families started setting up beside us... lol...

Afterwards, derick's friend's came to join us and we played ultimate frisbee... it was great! i didnt know i could catch... hahahaha! ohh i also tried so hard to tan.. and it semi worked.. i got a semi tan.. its not very noticable but you could sort of tell (excluding arms and face... which was already slightly tanned to begin with, made it easier to tan) curse kenny and his easily tanned body! he got a beautiful tan today!!! hehhehee... well, at least i managed to get some.... that always helps! hehehe

Dinner @ spring rolls was really good too... except we had sand all over our bodies.. so half way through everyone just started randomly saying they have sand stuck to their (insert body part) hehehe... but yeah, it was great... it was so relaxing, i dunno why i never bothered going earlier... oh wait.. right, i was addicted to the internet... well now ive found my cure... usually when i go out i do think about how i could @ home playing games or whatever, but today i just enjoyed my time @ the beach... i think ive found my new love and addiction... i will try to go as often as i can till it gets cold.....!! :)

A day @ the Island

2005-09-02T23:22:00.000-04:00

Celebrated Alice's bday yesterday (happy bday alice!!!)
it was a GREAT 15 hours of fun!!! hehehe

started off going to center island... it was GREAT! tried to relearn how to rollerblade.... HAHAHAH.... couldnt stop :(
soooo bad..... but still... it was soo much... FUN!!!! after our bike/blade ride we went down to the beach to play frisbee and to hang around in the water... it was SO great! i got some sun.. (only tanned my arms for some reason.. i think my body is like naturally immuned to being tanned.. especially my white white legs.. .AHAHHA)

then we went to have dinner @ this korean restaurant in korean town.... i have to say, the food was really good! mmmm.... so good... food...! dimitri's was great too! hehehe... gotta love fatty deserts!!! (drool!!!)

then we went to sing k... can you believe take one is doing such a cheap special? 10 bucks PER ROOM per hour... wow!!!
thats amazing! tehehehe....

yeah, i would say more about my day.... but trying to cut back on writing.. hehehe

all in all... it was GREAT... i never enjoyed the sun SO MUCH ever!! hehehe but kinda got sick though... :S immune system not strong enough to fight of the A/C of places.... oy...
hopefully i'll fully recover by sunday so i can be nice and energetic for the beach & kenny's bday! tehehehhe! mmmm beach...! :P

End of 3rd Year Bus.

2005-08-31T19:24:00.000-04:00

Woo my last mark is out... STUPID schaeffer... took forever... got me all worried... anyways... yay i am OFFICALLY done 3rd year...
whoopie do! now i can concentrate on other things!!!! hehehehe

I've come to notice that people always have their birthdays in clumps.... and it always happens when your broke.... hehehe....
but i think this time ive outdone myself.... its a pretty unique present..... and since i dont see them often, it will be a good reminder that they still have a friend even though they are miles away! its sort of backfired though... now i want one! lol...

ohhh my trainer from Staples called the other day.... asking if i had questions etc.... i was a lil thrown back by the call so i was talking like an idiot as usual... haha.. but anyways, im kinda looking forward to this job.. mostly cuz i know its actually related to my program, and + i desperately need the money... hehe, but i cant believe my summer break is so short... and stupid hurricanes or tornados and floods are threatening to cut off my weekend of sun :(

ps... you really know who your true friends are when your crippled, they dont mind the distance and come to see you just the same... unlike other ppl who whine and bitch about it... i dont need to take shit like that.... i can walk... i can bus... better yet, i can just NOT GO!

pps, i cant stop staring at the present....... mmmm.... its so fascinating!

In the Blink of an Eye...

2005-08-29T12:25:00.000-04:00

Life is so... messed up.... been busy these past couple of days so havent had time to post religiously... but here's a summary of what i've been up to...

my room is almost done, after tmr, it should be pretty much complete, except for that stupid bookcase that i still need to replace, but as ive said before, it's a working progress...

tried to make something different instead of my dull and boring cheesecake, so decided to try a triple chocolate mousse... it was half a success... lol... 2 layers were melty and 1 layer was just right... i have absolutely no idea why so i'll have to experiment... but it was way too sweet cuz well.. stupid english recipies are always like 10x sweeter than what it should be.. :S anyways, will try again :)

went to loo on sat to paint roberta's room... we had lots of fun.. as usual, and the landlord is ubber nice..! but HOLY SHIT... 8 hours on the bus... NOT how i want to spend my day... ~_~" greyhound buses that stop @ guelph are evil....... especially when i cant sleep... :S

waking up early and being cooped up in the bus with recycled air gave me a massive headache, which made worst my about to start flu/cold... so i ended up passing out at 9pm and sleeping for 11 hours straight.... ~_~"

finally saw karen last nite, glad to know that things are back to normal.. at least i hope it is? i dunno... still mebbe some awkward silences when we're alone but... hopefully it will past... seems like old times again... bbting for the whole nite just talking and laughing.... i miss those good times... hopefully, more will come...

lastly... i just found out something really disturbing... my roomies, whom i like really much... well... nicky, was telling me in her email that... she broke up with mike... :S and they're married... she moved out on her own on sat and.. well that is just... so .. words cant even describe it... i sort of knew they were having problems but i thought it was more stress wise than this serious... and i dont get how such a big change can happen in 2 weeks... i was only gone for 2 weeks and... now.. .... sigh.... guess this is part of life.... its so upsetting to see such a nice couple (genuinely nice, not that fake bullshit) have to go thru soooooo much crap....

anyways yeah, hearing about that has made me decide on something personal too.....

Post TKD

2005-08-24T16:15:00.000-04:00

Woo! I finally got my TKD belt test pics back... stupid me, i was in such a rush i forgot to bring my camera :( but luckily someone else did.. woo! there's a couple of funny/awkward positions that i was in, mostly because i couldnt concentrate... i had 3 exams coming for the next 3 days... :S (originally i wanted to use blogger's picture post thing to do it, but its too time consuming, and i rather use HTML anyways)

Patterns - me and maki (we both stopped at the exact same part cuz we forgot what the next step was.... hehe)

Left - Wrapping of the foot, so we dont shatter our bones when we do our breaking
Right - Take down move... mmmm...

Before & after of my drop kick... one of my best kicks due to my ability to stretch vertically but not horizontally.... lol

Back kick, 1st pic looks sort of okay, 2nd kick as horrible... couldnt concentrate at all that nite... also HUGE difference between which leg is kicking... i have a weak right leg...

Breaking - me & maki, roundhouse

Breaking - steph & cristal, walk behind sidekick? sidekick? a kick that i suck at... lol

Breaking - katie & darcy, back kick

Left - maki sparring with reid, look at the perfect roundhouse!!!
Right - whole class after exam.... (i have to say though, personally one of my worst gradings ever.. :S)

Straightjacket Feeling

2005-08-23T01:05:00.000-04:00

-- don't usually do this, but this song is awesome --

"Straightjacket Feeling"

Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straightjacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was over
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is staring holes in me again

Trust you is just one defense
off a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
to take you back now, but you can't win
Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was over
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is staring holes in me again,
but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

And when the memory slips away
There will be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
and just the thought of you I fear
it falls away

Yesterday was over
Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is staring holes in me again,
but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

Spammy Viruses

2005-08-22T22:28:00.000-04:00

Wow... so first we have spam mail... then email hosts created the junk filter... so then the viral fought back with pop up boxes... and the browsers defended with pop up blockers.. so the next logical move would be for the virals to do something.. and here we have it! the next phase in viral marketing... spammy blog comment boxes..!

4 and possibly 5 in one day... wow! i must be SUPER popular..! not that im pissed off, just slightly irritated... because they are kinda funny :

"Hey, you have a great blog here! I'm definitely going to bookmark you!

I have a agency bride married ukraine site. It pretty much covers
agency bride married ukraine related stuff."

-- as if i would EVER need to to use an online agency to find a ukraine to marry... hrm.. mebbe i do if i was planning on cheating the gov so they could come over and reap our benefits and social welfare....!

and

" Nice job on your blog! I am book marking your site for future reference."

-- FUTURE REFERENCE ON WHAT!?!?!?!?!? its not like im a guru or anything... i basically used this blog to vent for the past 4 months.. .~_~"

there's also one that says i did a great job on my resume listing.... (What resume listing!?!?) im leaving all the comments there so you know what to look for, most of them ARE pretty obvious, and there are signs to look for them but i gotta say, the 1st one really does look real... :)

for your sake, here's what you need to recognize:
1) they all sign in under anonymous
2) they all start with some cheesy line about how GREAT your blog is
3) they all end with come check out mine or something really stupid "Come and check it out if you get time :-)"
4) the content is all diff but some are stupid enough to leave the company name...

anyways, you can check them out here at the comments section, the 1st one is actually legit (as in user.. but i think he was trying to advertise his blog more than he was trying to say he read mine.. lol) Fucking Hell

FUCKING HELL...

2005-08-19T16:40:00.000-04:00

so damn pissed off... and i totally SHOULDNT because SO MANY GOOD THINGS happened... but yeah its pouring like when "GOD" decide to wipe out everything and noah wanted to save the animals outside right now... but holy shit.. i dont know what the hell is wrong with my stupid window, but it decided to leak all the water in.... the water totally overflowed into my room and onto the nearest electrical outlet.... which my labtop was plugged into.... im so lucky i didnt get electricuted while i was trying to stop the flooding... its insane... :S and i cant figure out why .. i just know where its coming from but i dont understand how the water is getting thru the seal... :@ anyways, called my mom desperately like 10 times and no one picked up.. her excuse was no reception/cant dial out... WTF, its called GET ANOTHER PHONE, WHEN YOU SON CALLS YOU 10 TIMES IN A ROW, OBVIOUSLY SOMETHING IS HAPPENING.. FUCK MAN...

anyways good news.. i am OFFICALLY! done 3rd year... im still waiting for my OB mark, but thats cuz stupid scheaffer decided to go on a perverted vacation and he has no idea how to allocate any of our marks.... but however... since all my other marks were pretty decent... that is to say... pretty good compared to my other bus marks... im extermely happy! and unless he fails me on my final, i think i'll be okay.... its not like i need a high mark... even somewhere in the 60's range will help... OY i dunno i am scared though... cuz this guy is crazy... anyways kinda dissapointed that my marketing dropped, i was going in with an A or mebbe A- i think... :S

ohh also, i got back my review for ICE... that stupid bitch lost... AHHAHAHA... they said that we (me & gill) should have done more to make sure we meet the group's expectations (but WTF how am i suppose to meet them if i dont KNOW ABOUT THEM?) anyways, they were like yeah the group should have utilized my skills and expertise more and they should have told gill exactly what they expected..... so there you go for trying to screw us over bitch.... ahhahaha.. anyways.... i havent had anything to eat all day yet... (booo EDMOND ...) but still upset from flooding, so body is totally pumped with adrenline.....

Pics...

2005-08-13T14:55:00.000-04:00

The quality is pretty bad.. mostly cuz it was from my camera phone.. im sorry i dont have boobage... or else i would have snuck my camera in..!

Car Crash that stalled us for 2 and half hours...

Anti Flag - as you can tell.. im not a big fan... lol

Jimmy Eat World - i would have to say better live than CD

Greenday - knows how to rock our asses off!

Me & Kenny on the Ride Home.....

Starting Summer Off with Greenday!

2005-08-13T02:27:00.000-04:00

Thats right! you heard right! starting off my summer offically with the greenday concert tonite... HOLY FUCKING SHIT! it was the best concert EVER!... EVER!... soooo many things happened today! so i meet kenny @ yorkdale to take the greyhound there, and i got caught in that really short but hard shower... so i was already wet when i got there, but i couldnt care less... because of like a stupid 2 car traffic accident on the OTHER SIDE of the hwy, it took us from 4pm to 6 30pm before we got to molson park... 2 and a half hours!!! i could have been to waterloo and back!!! ~_~" on the bus ride, we saw a couple of laurier kids.. (one guy looked really familiar) and then it was for the 1st time (well mebbe not the 1st.. but it actually hit me) i realized how loud and annoying i was.. hahahaha... cuz one of the laurier kids wouldnt shut up.... he talked nonstop for 2 and a half hours! + he sat right infront of me and pulled the chair so far back that... i had to move because there wasnt any room for my legs....

anyways when we got there, it was SO packed.. and we got there JUST in same to see anti flag open...they... were.... well... lol... kinda bad... all their songs have the same stuff in it..... bush sucks, fuck, war bad, stop police brutality.. ~_~' and well litterally that was all there was to the lyrics... + it doesnt help that they said fuck bush like 50 million times during the half an hour they were on... lol.. anyways... totally sucked! lol... JEW was actually a lot better, i had listen to some of their songs before and i thought wow, wat a boring band... but i guess the environment and hearing them live completely changes the mood, cuz their songs werent actually half bad!

Of course the best show ever was when greenday showed up.. HOLY SHIT.... i swear, they put so much thought into this show... it was unbelievable... they started off with fireworks... and then they ENDED WITH FIREWORKS.. that went ON AND ON AND ON for like almost 5 mins! now you have to realize that... fireworks for 5 mins costs a LOT... prolly around 10 grand... they had fire in between songs, and they pulled up this kid... and they also pulled up ppl from the crowd to play all 3 instruments... jenn says that its all a gimmic and that the kids really know greenday/tour with them.. but if they did, they put on one hell of a show... it was amazing... at the end, billie joe gave his guitar to the guy who was playing.... fucking awesome!!!!

I had no idea i was such a greenday fan until i realized that i knew words to like 90% of their songs.... and then ontop of that, i was willing to forgo like 12 hours of hunger and thirst to go see them!!! There were a couple of shitty parts.. lol.. mostly the crowd where ppl would pretend that they're pass through only to stop right infront of you... or the giants not realizing they're giants standing right infront of you... ohh and of course there's these ppl who decide that they can do whatever the hell they want and rush right through the crowd thru brute force... so i ended up kicking one of them.. like full on kicked him... i dont even think he realized.. lol... and the girl behind me cheered me for doing it.. hahahah

so when we knew it was gonna end, me and kenny started pushing our way out... and it was the BEST DECISION EVER!!! we caught the 1st greyhound bus home and it only took 45 mins to get to yorkdale... as oppose to like 3 hours from all the traffic of everyone else leaving...! anyways, i had to show kenny that i do end up sitting beside nasty/horrible ppl... so i decided to sit beside the guy who was watching anime on his mini dvd player (of course it was totally by accident.. i didnt realize at the time) but the problem was... he had headfones and WASNT USING THEM... so basically the whole ride back while i was trying to sleep he was playing anime and i heard like EVERYTHING.... FUCKING ASSHOLE... oh, did i mentioned that he farted half way through and likes to talk to himself about the stuff he's watching~_~???

anyways, all in all it was awesome... 4 HOURS of a kickass concert... couldnt be more pleased ever! my voice is totally shot... from screaming and singing and dehydration.. it rained halfway through and none of us cared... it was that great..! so now as i eat my dinner (yes dinner, lol.. me and kenny went without food for 12 hours... or water for like 10) i realize that this is one of the best days that ive ever had in a long long time... :)

PS.. kenny has the bladder of a rock... he didnt pee for like 10 hours.... lol...
(well, we did sweat pretty badly.. but lol... still..!) heheheheh

Third Year Over

2005-08-09T22:14:00.000-04:00

Wow... its been sooooo long since ive posted... no thanks to skool ! woo... so the past week... was HELL... like ABSOLUTE hell...! even more stressful than skool.. wow.. ~_~" 3 exams back to back to back was just... insane...!

Recap: Thurs - Finance, Fri - Ops, Sat - OT, Tues - Marketing
So I spent the start of the week alternating between finance and Ops, mostly studying finance because it was a lot harder than ops..... at least for me! i guess it makes more sense in my head... ahhahahaha..
Anyways, it was going fine, i was waking up and then studying all day... but when tuesday hit... i just FREAKED OUT... like fucking FREAKED OUT.... i had planned that i would finish my art portfolio on monday cuz since marketing was a case, i couldnt really study for it... but at 2 30pm on tuesday... i learned that i had mis-read the due date and it was actually due that day at 4 30... it was prolly the single most stressful day in my life... the next 8 hours were spent trying to finish that damn thing so i could continue to study.... wow... anyways, after finance... it went kinda down hill... i studied less and less (mostly cuz we had cheat sheets, so i knew i didnt have to memorize how to do anything...) but i completely lucked out..... it was... relatively easy..... and i have no idea why... for my sake, i really hope i did well....

Finance was kinda weird.... as in it could go either way.... which is kinda scary.. .but i think i did okay........ ? i dunno..~_~"
Ops was really easy.... or it was "suppose to be" i cant believe i missed that 8 mark simulation question.... i didnt get ANY of it... oy.... stupid on my part... real stupid :(
OT well.. it was OT... the case was kinda not really good, & it was stupid schaeffer marking it... which just prolly means i'll fail... cuz he has this messed up vision of ppl write... also... when ppl started leaving.... i completely paniced and did one of my bad habits... i finished my thought as soon as possible and left... ~_~" completely idiotic.... but i totally couldnt help it....
Marketing was... i dunno okay i guess... the case was more financed based than i thought mostly because i know rose is more focused on theory... it really did seem like i couldnt apply any marketing theory on it and that i could focus on just financials.. which im sure some ppl did... but i did manage to squeeze some marketing stuff in... so hopefully... it wont be as bad......

OY! now comes the bad part... waiting for marks.... ive never been afraid before but this time... i was really afraid of throwing away my notes.... because im scared that i have to retake it..... the wait will prolly gonna kill me... i hope we get our marks within next week..!!! ... oy!!! anyways... wow...... i cant believe im done 3rd year (HOPEFULLY!!! ) oy!!!

So i had my meeting with laura allan yesterday about my stupid ICE group..... i dunno how it went... hopefully she'll see that i ACTUALLY DID put in time and work... as oppose to gill.. cuz it would be dangerous if she puts us together in the same group.. cuz she's definitely getting her mark reduced.... oy!....

Rememberance

2005-08-02T20:25:00.000-04:00

A week before my exams, a really close family friend's mom passed away from cancer... i've known this family all my life and i feel so bad that i couldnt attend the funeral...

She was the kindest, most gentle person that i know, who was married to a really... well... "not nice" husband... life is just so sad...

May she rest in peace....

Stressed

2005-07-28T02:46:00.000-04:00

Today was offically the last class of TKD before my belt test... ~_~" i totally forgot that next monday is a civic holiday, which means the AC is closed :( i have so much stuff to do right now... it scares me... it really does... i technically have 7 days now to learn at least 2 books worth of math..... how on earth am i gonna accomplish that? i am so screwed, really i am.... finance is.... moving along in an eerie way... basically some questions i can get, some i dont, but we all know that sample/hw questions are always a joke and then when exam time comes... its like a challenge to see who can come up with the most difficult question to screw the kids...

anyways... something i would definitely not do... but regardless of which i think is cool:

so yeah... i think skulls & crossbones are really tasteless.. but then again, im have awkward tastes in tattoos...also... i dont care if its not really radioactive... it cant be good for you... lol... and mostly cuz im allergic to shellfish and the stuff that makes it glow is shellfish... the point is, im already trying to figure out what i want and where i want it... hrm... im beginning to have some ideas :P

(intro to suspense music) dun dun dun! (outro)

ps. im completely forgetting my htmling skills... which wasnt much to begin with.. sigh... i wanna do so many things but so little time.... ~_~"

ohh i also had a weird dream lastnite/this morning... i was... @ this... skool/apartment complex, except it was really really weird.. like the elevators became monorails if we wanted to travel form one part of the building to another and it actually went outside and stuff.. anyways... i usually forget dreams and well i dont want to go on and on about the details but what made this dream stick was a couple of things.... #1 in the dream, i was deathly afraid of elevators/monorails.... which is a reoccuring thing because its not the first time that im like litterally trying to hold on for my life as these things move... ~_~" (ive also had dreams where i was inside an elevator and it would fall... like those really old ones with steel gates instead of doors..) #2 i saw a lot of my old friends... and an ex gf too... as if we were suddenly back together and everything was fine.... #3 some chinese celeb that we were hanging around with @ this jap food place... with the cook being a friend of mine... (who cannot cook for the life of her..? lol mebbe she can.. lol) #4 i caught this uncurable disease... and it really really freaked me.... like everyone was telling me that im about to die, that it would only be a short while and meanwhile, i'd be walking around, feeling myself get worst and worst with this "disease" but the time never did come where i died...... wow... what goes on in my mind, you dont wanna know.. !!!.... anyways ive drawn a couple of conclusions... a) me going on rollercoasters & rides despite my fear of heights prolly manifests itself in my dreams.... b) i need a gf.... c) im anticipating my own death.... except somewhere inside of me i dont wanna die cuz im afraid of the unknown....

well.. its 3am.. i guess its time to sleep! .... hopefully dreamless...!

The Failure That Is Me

2005-07-25T13:42:00.000-04:00

So we just got back our marks from ICE... and holy shit man.... worst mark ever... LITTERALLY! :'( we have the lowest mark in all of our year..... sigh.... cant even begin to say how disapointed i am.... okay, so first let me say that i thought we deserved like a 7, a relatively low mark considering how the avg was 7.5, but i didnt think we deserved a 6.5..... that's 2 grade points lower than avg... we have the lowest in all of the 3rd year.... anyways, yes member how i said before whether i wanted a group i hated and got excellent marks and group that i worked well with and did bad? yeah... i totally choose group i hate with excellent mark :( anyways... so we had LAURA fuckin' ALLAN in our BOD and well most ppl might say "oh yeah she's a bitch, but i dont think it would have made a diff, your report sucked anyways" ... total BULLSHIT... the main problem we had with our report which made us do so bad was the lack of communication...they said that our report was all over the place and we couldnt communicate properly.. and the way they marked it was that they gave same proportion on report clarity and research/stuff inside... so what the bitch gave us a 4.7 out of 10.. she flat out failed us... and some of her marks were 2, 4 out of 10 when the other prof, a 4th year policy prof who's a former CEO gave us 8 out of 10.. it was so inconsistent.... like wtf...? she took off marks everywhere just because we failed to communicate properly, and that's bullshit.. #1, i dont agree with the report being the same weight as the material inside, i agree that it should be taken into consideration.. but.. yeah no.... it was not fair that she docked so many marks based on communication ..

next, the prof flat out said that the other group had NOTHING, no research and no answer, but they wrote a better report, his exact words "they had nothing and they wrote it a good format" they had the SAME MARK AS US... WTF?? and then they got bumped up because of their presentation apparently... so what they are TRYING to convey to us is that they care more about format than they do about content... wow.. what a great fucking skool...

next .... someone in our group decided that ppl had different contribution levels, so to do a peer eval... i have a couple of comments on that...
a) we have the lowest mark in our year... why would you do this ??? apparently the marks "can" go up if we provide enough proof or something.. but... honestly.. ~_~" that just means someone's gonna get shafted....
b) she claims that well 3 out of the 5 group members were immuned.. the finance guy... and her & someone else cuz they spent "the night before" revising the "presentation" which added changes to like uh.. "power titles" and "took off some points".... or something like that... .... which meant it was me and someone else who's left out.... and well the other girl went out to morty's while the group was sort of putting it together and editing, while i was at TKD... i was told that it should have been done by 10 at the latest, so when i called after TKD, they were like oh yeah dont worry, we'll be done by 1 so come by then for the final review.. etc... (i specifically said that i didnt want to edit, cuz i have bad grammar, and that cuz i had TKD..., which was WHY i wrote most of the report... and i also did some exhibits) anyways... .that girl who went out to drink is getting docked for sure... but if i get pulled into this... i will be very upset cuz i honestly think they didnt do all that much... finance guy didnt sleep for 2 days etc and did all the finance stuff, but uh, thats why we wrote the stuff... as for those two.. they didnt spent the whole nite working on "vamping" up the presentation, they took time to write their own parts... and honestly, i was the only one prepared... i memorized my parts before our group meet and i was ready to practice while they worried about what the powerpoint looked like... anyways, i will definitely voice my opinion if they decide to say that i didnt do as much as everyone else.....

outcome to follow... sigh
time to finish all my art assignments and start studying for exams :'(

Yes, i am bored.....

2005-07-23T18:04:00.000-04:00

Take the What High School
Stereotype Are You? quiz.

False Freedom

2005-07-22T18:26:00.000-04:00

So im finally done ICE week... this marks the beginning of truely the end..... only like what? 3 more days of skool left and then exams... and after that.. hopefully i'll be done 3rd year.... and still in co-op... but wow.... what a semester..... ive never had so much pressure from skool ever... glad i suffered through it.... but i gotta tell ya, it was insane... .as roberta & steph can undoubtedly testify..... but its so weird... its like ive finally settled down for now anyways but i still feel as if i have so much stuff to do :S (i do, studying wise, not for assignments).... i guess ive been so use to working at such a hardcore pace that stopping and slowing down hasnt really hit me yet..... anyways, im SO glad i didnt make it to the last round, i was 100% ready to die yesterday and i slept for like 10 hours lastnight... the most ive slept in prolly like 2 days combined... however, i am scared that we will get a really low mark.... cuz we did get laura allan.. :S sigh... well whatever, its done and over with.... just waiting for exams now..... hopefully i can learn 3 courses within 10 days... hahhahahaha :S

So ive decided to try something new... im actually bleaching my hair.. :S after like what? uh... 5 years of saying i would never bleach it and just dying it regularly... ive caved.... well im trying to dye it blue... so it has to be bleached (i tried it without, it turned my brown hair into black (brown was from the unsuccessful red dying) :S oy... hopefully it'll not look too bad.. :S but i dont think i should bleach my whole head blue.. mebbe just hte tips? i dunno... :S anywyas im so tired, i have no idea what im talking about (i did sleep for 10 hours, but i woke up half way to drive my mom to work cuz i needed the car, and also i woke up before and afterwards cuz i wasnt use to sleeping so much... despite the fact that im like super tired!)

anyways, i'll see how it looks... hehehe..
oohhh exciting news! i got my ipod fixed.. well not really, but i finally sent it in, and after a WHOLE week ipod less and leaving my laptop with 1.5 gigs left (from 10), i finally got it back! well not really, they just sent me a new one with my personalized engraving... lol... and i sort of expected it cuz one of my co workers @ work told me that he sent his in and they gave him a new one... lol i guess its easier to send new one than to fix, and i have a feeling it was non-fixable anyways.. so yay! i have a new ipod.. which i will definitely cherish now.. cuz the stupid plastic melted on my old one, and then i scratched it up pretty bad... time to buy a case! heheheheh!

...

2005-07-16T19:41:00.000-04:00

If there was a word that's has a heavier connotation that fuck... i would using this right now... over and over and over again.....
WHY THE HELL AM I LIVING IN A HOUSE THAT FLOODS TWICE IN 3 FUCKING DAYS? its not even dry from the previous flood and its already wet again???? especially with this hot and humid weather? yeah, mold and mildew is definitely going to start growing and we'll all die.... i fuckin' HATE THIS STUPID HOUSE...............

p.s. ICE is going great... i have an awesome group & things are working out...

My Underwater Adventure

2005-07-14T13:23:00.000-04:00

Captain Gene's Log: July 13th, 2005 12:05am

I heard gurgling noises and smell wafting from the latrine and suspected something was up...
As i investigated the matter, i notice the ground was slightly moist and the bathmats seemed to be slightly wet....
I noticed the people upstairs were using an exuberant amount of water.... but decided that everything was okay due to the fact that the house was almost always quite humid....
As the smell of sewage subsided... i continued my late night adventure that the ps2...

Captain Gene's Log: July 14th, 2005 12:35pm

As I got home from my arctic ICE adventure, i realized something had gone majorly wrong.... the basement of my basement floor (ie the bathroom, kitchen and living room) was completely UNDER WATER.... the whole living room was carpeted.. but still an in of water still managed to seep through and created various lakes of soapy water... there was at least an inch of water above the ground......... i immediately yelled to the girl who lived above me to completely stop whatever she was doing with the water...
after an hour of trying to dry things later... the ground is still wet.. the carpet is still soaked, mike's tv was salvaged quickly enough but i think his computer/harddrive might have been the victim of this occurrence... the landlord was nowhere to be found and the horrible history of this house unraveled infront of me as the girl above told me of the horrors that went on in this house before i had moved here.... the problem? most likely the pipe that brings water to the washer coming lose because it wasnt long enuf.... the solution? a cooler in the middle of the room with soapy green/bluish water and hopefully the heat will evaporate everything.... (in mebbe a week or two).... my losses..... a bag of rice... for now....

In conclusion.... through my endeavors at this house... i have experienced a typical student living situation.... a)being in the basement and still having the perfect temperature for a sauna, b)insect infestation whom has collectively decided to dine on my defenseless body as i slept semi-naked.... (i got bite by a huge spider which resulted in swelling almost to the size of my hand but no spider abilities were acquired) c) fly infestation (completely different from insect because they were mostly in the living room and kitchen that only sometimes flew into my room and generally caused an annoyance more than pain... d) the complete and utter flooding of my living room.... i wish i took pictures as momento... but giving the situation (walking into your living room and seeing an actual stream flowing through) there was no time for comedies... :S
anyways.... to the point... i think the only thing that i am missing from the perfect student living in hell situation would be rats...
i passionately hate this house and cant wait until i move out in a month.....

The Beginning of the End

2005-07-12T10:26:00.000-04:00

Wow........ i cant believe i made it through this sem alive.... today is "unofficially" the last class.... well we still have like a couple of classes after ICE, but its mostly review... since they pushed back ICE week, which is smart, considering i doubt anyone would have done any work & stuff after ice... but holy shit.... ice has soooo much stuff planned for us..... kinda scary!

Anyways.... as our group tried to finish finance off lastnight... it was so obvious that everyone's brain capacity has been diminished into a bloody pulp.... no one could concentrate for more than 15 mins and we basically "talked" lol..... but here is the 3rd wave of crunch time... so basically it means that i have to spend today and tmr recouperating.... and then... ready to tackle this all over again... its not ice im worried about (unless i have really bad group members) its exams... :S well hopefully i can learn finance and ops within the week... lol.. thats my goal.. to start studying when ice starts... hahaha... will definitely try my best to make it happen but its gonna be kinda sketchy.... i dont even have time to go home ~_~" oh well...

Pre school end summary:
classes skipped - starting end of june/july... pretty much 1 ops/ob class per week... :S every other week marketing ..... (sigh)
weight lost - 10 pounds.... HOLY SHIT! im down to 136...... (weighed yesterday night).... and it actually shows... which makes me look pretty much malnutritioned... !_!... and its NOT due to the lack of meat.. well actually i think it is... lol.... but basically, ever since the group work started, i get mebbe 1 1/2 meals a day.... with the 1st meal of my day starting as early as 2pm and as late as 4pm..... sigh... i hate skool.....
anxiety/anger attacks - almost every other group meeting ppl act like fools tick me off.... for "certain" groups... im actually really happy about the megan/kevin combination.. i think we work well together...

i would really have to say.... i think i screwed over kevin ..... unintentially.... he's done like 65-75% of our group assignments... like all the time... and thats because i would always be lost on how to do the assignment. and he would help me.... but he also said that he works better alone than in groups.... so he'd always have most of the questions done regardless of whether he had to do it or not. :S anyways i feel bad, so thats why i marked myself and other group members down and marked him up for peer evaluation.....
anyways.... im excited for ICE.. although i havent preped for it yet.. :S
and its hot as hell here..... :S

The Life of a Schaffer Student

2005-06-30T10:25:00.000-04:00

On the bus ride home again... finally after like what? 3 weeks of like horrible horrible group work and assignments... i can at least take a breather for the long weekend (technically i have tones of stuff to do, but i dont plan on doing any of it... lol mebbe just catch up on finance assignments and homework, but either than that... catch up on lost lost sleep...... ~_~")
anyways, just got back my exec summary for the littleton case for OB.... honestly... our "exchange prof" is like the biggest idiot ever...... he writes all these rude and obscene things on our report... like we're stating the obvious and being stupid when he hasnt said a DAMN thing about what he wanted on the report... basically, he didnt even know about it until we mentioned to him about it... wtf.... stuff like "where else would it be? your home?" "of course littleton, who else? GMC?" like.. rude off his ass... and i guess it doesnt help that he wakes up at like 3/4 in the morning to mark our assignments cuz he has insomnia or some weird thing....
and its totally completely and utterly biased (lol yeah i know im being redundant, but its really true) he loves jason & jacob, so they always get the highest marks ever... all 90's... WTF.... i can guarentee you that we spent a lot more work than they did... and we have some pretty smart ppl in our group.. ~_~" (excluding me of course) and then there's the fact that i pretty much got like the lowest mark in the class on the exec summary because i guess he hates me?? i got a 72.. wth... the lowest mark was prolly an 80.... ~_~" sigh... and his justification is stupid, cuz its an exec summary, so obviously everything i wrote was wat we had on our report... #1 he stated that the problem wasnt a lack of, it was dysfunctional... which is fine, except he totally marked it as right on our report... and then there's the fact that sentences that i TOOK STRAIGHT from the report word of word was marked WRONG/circled with question mark while he gave positive comments in the report..... exact same phrase.... wth? talk about double standard.... its so sad... he always talks to me & stuff, but apparently he hates me... ohh yeah and then there's the fact that during our "meeting" with him, (i use quotations cuz it was barely a conversation to begin with) where meg picked up a random magazine off the table to look @ and it turned out to be porn...... wow.... i guess it justifies how he always takes pictures of girls when they present (like today, he took 8) and only takes like 1 when most of the group members are all guys (ie my group) anyways, enough ranting.... hopefully this ride will be done soon.... ive pretty much wasted away.... i on average have the 1st meal of my day at like 2, 3 in the afternoon.. and then have like another at around 6,7 and then thats it... but i run from like 8 in the morning (after those insane group meeting periods) till like 2 in the morning... just dying.. so hungry ~_~" i could eat a cow.... lol.... (yes, i dont care if its a corny joke... i was trying to make a point!) anyways.... bleh.... time for bleach & naruto

Wow..... sakura needs to die... sooo badly... even when they make her the medical ninja and follow the footsteps of tsunade, she's still gonna suck ass, and we all know it.... ~_~"

Long Vent part 2

2005-06-27T01:16:00.000-04:00

anyways, so i had go get food.. so i ended up getting taco bell (fast food meals all day 2nd day in a row) and then when i got back, i wrote my exec summary for OB... thank god... but then guess what??? aaron decided the stuff i wrote was shit and just deleted EVERYTHING.... without even so much as saying a word to me.... WTF... of course i would be offended, they didnt even ask for my opinion or what i thought/back up why i wrote it that way... so basically from being done, i had no fucking clue what i was doing/saying for the presentation and everything i did before was just gone... WHY THE FUCKING HELL DID I SPENT THE ENTIRE DAY THERE THEN!?!?!? and then they kept on pointing out how 1 of the 6 slides that i made was still there... WTF... i couldnt care less if THAT SLIDE was UP THEIR ASS.... it was part of the implimentation but it wasnt my part, it was aarons... all the slides on my parts were GONE... so obviously i was pissed... oh did i mention how he stated that this thing that i wrote was "bullshit" ??? then he goes on to say later on when i started getting pissed and aruging with him that he wasnt trying to attack me personally.. um... this thing is bullshit... wtf is that if not a personal attack? NOT TO MENTION IT MADE FUCKING SENSE AND AFTER OTHER PEOPLE EXPLAINED IT, HE KEPT IT.... MOTHER FUCKER.... so then after arguing, he has the bull to tell me that i cant say wahtever because i have to be on board... HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSE TO BE ON BOARD WHEN YOU CHANGED EVERY BLOODY THING I WROTE AND EXPECT ME TO UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SUPPOSE TO SAY.... BITCH....

oh did i mention that ALL THIS TIME, all the drawings and advertisements that they MADE me do... became obsolete (which was another huge waste of MY FUCKING TIME) and then they made me redraw the same fucking thing 3 times cuz it wasnt the right size?? (THEY DIDNT SPECIFY THE SIZE, IM NOT A FUCKIN' MIND READER, WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO?) Oh, and they had the gull to make me do it RIGHT THERE AND THEN... AS IF I DONT NEED ANY TIME OR WHATEVER TO DO IT...
so after i finished the 3rd one, they decided it wasnt the right size and made someone else who sucked @ drawing to do it...
anyways, i was pretty much just pissed off the whole time so i said as little as possible. oh.. yeah did i mentioned that my part went from 3 slides to 1? wow.. thats just great on my part... will look SO WELL TMR when i say that 1 lil thing for the whole presentation.. meanwhile, derek (whom i think cant really present as well out of everyone in the group) stumbles and fumbles with the graphs/exhibits that ive made... wtf..... real smart assholes... anyways, we finally get to our practice run which took a damn hour... cuz no one knew what fuckin' aaron wanted so they had to rechange everything.. oh, and instead of focusing on practicing, the spent half an hour on trying to jack it up to make it funny when all along during the last couple of weeks ALL THEY COULD TALK ABOUT WAS HOW FUCKIN' GREAT THE PRESENTATION WOULD BE CUZ THEY CAN MAKE IT SO FUNNY ETC ETC ETC... MY ASS... its boring and it SUCKS ASS.. all talk and no action.... so while they were fidgeting with that stupid picture for an advertisement, i kindly suggested we worry about that later and start practicing... aaron goes all awol on me and starts pounding me about how he had JUST SAID that we should make a run through to see what our presentation is like (not that he would start, just that we need to make sure we do a run thru) FUCKING BITCH, LISTEN BEFORE YOU START SAYING SHIT LIKE "did you not listen to what i JUST said??" he ending up shutting up and thought that i had a good point and started rehearsing... WTF... no appologies at all.... anyways, im pretty sure i blew all them all off their feet with my part of the presentation, even if they didnt mention anything i think i did a great job, considering how they NEVER DID ONCE TELL ME WHAT I NEEDED TO MENTION, i just put everything together by myself last minute and revised it as they fucked around...

god... meeting 6 30 tmr morning.... honestly if my booze wasnt @ tom's house, i would litterally just STOP talking after our presentation tmr.... sigh.... so pissed off... sorry just needed to vent... im pretty sure no one would have the time and interest to read EVERYTHING i just wrote...

Long Venting part 1

2005-06-27T00:26:00.000-04:00

because ive showered and relaxed a bit i can now talk about this objective.... my group members are TURDS....
lets start off with my stupid alarm clock not turning on at the right time... wtf... i set it for 1100, it should BUZZ @ 11, and wake me the hell up.. .:S anyways yeah i didnt get home till like 8 this morning, and it was really really bad.....
everyone was kinda just tired and edgy at the end of the long long haul and aaron being the guy that he is, decided to share his feelings about GC.... basically, he said their cd isnt even worth pissing on cuz it would defile his piss..... okay.. let me stop and say... what the FUCK man.... i dont care if your frizzing out, you dont say shit like that RIGHT AFTER THE GUY NEXT TO YOU JUST TOLD YOU THAT HE FRICKIN' LOVES THAT BAND.....honestly, i couldnt care less what he thought, everyone's allowed to have their own opinion and i know that a lot of ppl hate GC... but wtf... why would you say shit like that.....

okay, next topic. so yeah i was late today for almost an hour.. i apologized and i decided NOT to bring my labtop cuz they just brutally murdered it yesterday/this morning. everyone poked @ the mon.. its an lcd mon, you dont touch it EVER... it messes the screen up!!!... so i had tones of finger prints on the screen.. then comes the part where they take out their frustration on the keypad cuz they are a)tired of working b)blaming the software for being stupid when they are the ones who werent smart enough to use a simple microsoft program.... oh, and then there's the part where they fingers are all so dirty/oily from eating fast food and NOT washing their hands afterwards and then using my touchpad... so now this particular part in the middle has been completely decensitised... and no longer works.... sigh... then they decided to HOG my mouse cuz they cant use the touch pad, and since its a retractable cord, they decided to play with it and generally try to mess it up.. WTF, your not 5... its a frickin mouse.. & then theres all the BODY SCRATCHING.. one guy couldnt keep his hands out of his pants, and he justifies it by saying he's not actually touching himself, his rubbing his boxers... same guy who's also burps and farts non stop... then there's the guy who likes to scratch his chest/stomach/back while HOLDING ONTO MY USB KEY WTF... these fuckin' turds are so dirty, i need to BURN EVERYTHING they come in contact with... and they still have my USB key... it better there tmr or i'll be fuckin' pissed off....

okay next part comes where NO ONE wants to work on the fuckin' presentation thats DUE tmr.... WTF... they started off saying that they can PULL OF THE WORLD.. and what the FUCK HAPPENS??? THEY DONT DO JACK SHIT..... HOW THE HELL CAN YOU SAY THAT YOU WILL PULL THE PRESENATION TOGETHER WHEN YOU SPENT 16 hours TRYING TO DO A 10 page REPROT.... FUCKING HELL.... anyways so we split off and then of course aaron, the "leader" of the group decides to go missing and work on his stupid OB SHIT, while the rest of us has no fucking clue what to do... so obviously we just assigned parts of the presentation so we could all make our own slides... i got stuck with implimentation (which in retrospect was a dumbass decision because i WROTE ALL THE FUCKING EXHIBITS, i should be the one explaining them, cuz no one else knew it as well as i did) anyways, aaron was doing implimentation so instead of waiting for him , i decided to go ahead and put it all together and write out my parts too... (basically my whole job in this fucking group was to wait on ppl) they'd tell me what they'd need and i'd do it... i made advertisements, i made exhibits, i was always waiting for someone else to finish the work so i could work on my part... and they are all last minute mother fuckers and im so not... so since they were all braindead in powerpoint, i was suppose to put it together... but i couldnt do that until everyone was done... but all the fuckers decided to take "NAP BREAKS" ever 15 mins ... and complain about being tired and useless without sleep... wtf.. everyone slept for the same amount of time, heck, i slept less than them cuz i couldnt fall asleep... and i was working my ass off.... so i finished my part and it was already like 6... and they wouldnt let me go.. why? cuz they said that as soon as i leave they would be ready to practice... MY ASS... WE DIDNT OFFICALLY START TILL 10........

The Hell Day

2005-06-26T06:07:00.000-04:00

Its 6am right now.... marketing report almost done.... wow.... ive been at this since YESTERDAY 2PM... uh... 16 hours on this report.. and we're "almost" done.... holy fuck man.... i dont think you guys can imagine.... my brain is on the last of its juice, as soon as 7 30, 8 hits, i know i'll be brain dead for sure.... (just like last year's all nighter for cp102...) but wow.... soo much so much time.... its crazy.... i cant even being to describe what happened..... mebbe later when i get some sleep (& by some i mean 4 hours?) mostly because i have to wake up rinse and repeat this all over again tmr (which is technically today) yup kiddies... we still have to put together the presentation ( + we need to finish our OB stuff that's also due monday/tuesday)....half the group members think it will be done really quick but i honestly think its delusional.. it will take a really long time to put everything together, just like how it took forever to put the report together today..... + we dont have the pleasure of staying up all night cuz the presentation will be TOMORROW, FUCKIN' TOMORROW @ 8 30 in the morning.... how the hell am i...? THIS is why i hate doing things last minute.... its so... STUPID & idiotic..... but hey, not like me saying anything will help so might as well try to relax and enjoy the ride.... at least it will make myself more approachable/friendlier.... wow.... after monday's presentation... (if our stupid OB is done) i am so gonna get drunk.... (but i'll have to sober up for TKD @ 8.... sigh.. it never ends... it never never ends) and then i'll have to worry about the finance assignment, the ops assignment, the ops field project presentation, AND the live marketing report... all in for next week.... and the 1st half of the week after.. please.. i beg of you... kill me now......

and as if that wasnt all enuf, im pretty sure i'll be getting my finance midterm back, which i undoubtly failed... sigh... i need to scream... just scream.... and vent..... but im too tired to even muster the energy to do that... wow......

FUCKING HELL GROUPS

2005-06-21T01:45:00.000-04:00

FUCK MAN, i cant decide whether my group is a blessing or a fuckin' nightmare.... sure we have smart kids in the group but who cares when WE ARE SO NOT GOING TO FINISH ON TIME???? and that's only one of our problems.... i just got back from the worst fuckin' meeting ever.... we were editing our report (like grammar & stuff) and i swear, 1 member is ALWAYS FOCUSED ON WHAT TIME WE CAN GET OUT.... SERIOUSLY, GET YOUR FUCKIN' PRIORITIES STRAIGHT, YOU CANT GO INTO A MEETING NOT START ON ANYTHING AND ALREADY THINK ABOUT WHAT TIME YOU CAN LEAVE AT EVERY SINGLE MEETING....WTF.... WHAT HAS TO BE DONE HAS TO BE DONE.... REGARDLESS OF WHAT FUCKIN' TIME IT IS... SAYING THAT YOUR GOING TO LEAVE AT 12 AND NOT CARE WHETHER WE STAY TO FINISH OR NOT IS TOTAL BULLSHIT. ESPECIALLY WHEN IT WASNT EVEN 1/3RD DONE...

and then there's the other one who thinks he's right all the time.... WTF.... i can honestly say i have shitty grammar, but that doesnt mean that i dont make valid points sometimes.... and GET IT THROUGH THE THICK HEAD OF YOURS....when we're saying that the part that you wrote should be deleted because it makes more sense elsewhere, ITS NOT A FUCKING PERSONAL ATTACK SO GET IT OVER AND TRY TO UNDERSTAND OUR POINT OF VIEW FOR FUCK'S SAKES.... "i just followed whatever was assigned to my part... it shouldnt have been divided up this way" SHUT THE FUCK UP, IT SHOULDNT HAVE BEEN ASSIGNED THAT WAY BUT IT WAS, SO DEAL WITH IT & COPE... YOU FOLLOWED YOUR PART BUT IT WAS EXTRA AND FITS BETTER ELSEWHERE, ACCEPT IT AND MOVE ON... and just because your better in grammar than i am doesnt mean that everything you write is automatically rite and that "other words that make flow more" is automatically wrong....

so the ending of this half assed meeting? the grammar guy who had the SMALLEST FUCKING PART (COMPLAINED HE HAD THE SMALLEST PART, DID IT LAST MINUTE JUST BEFORE WE MET CUZ HE "DIDNT" HAVE TIME) STAYED SILENT when we the time came to decide what we should do cuz we were missing a huge chunk of our report that we're presenting to the rest of the group tmr.... oh did i mention that he was "SUPPOSE" to put the whole thing together but because it was too "FUCKING" late (ie 1 30) chickened out and the rushing to leave girl had to do it.... i ended up not talking for the later part of the meeting because there was no point in arguing when everyone thinks they're right and refuse to listen to any reason... i did want to talk, but there wasnt any point considering i wanted to say we should really stay and finish everything before we leave but obviously they dont want to stay so no point in talking at all.... so we're leaving like a couple of parts for the other ppl in our group to figure out (which i know is incredibly unfair but i will be part of the blame for it) and when it was done everyone just left... no one said anything at all.... no goodbyes or whatever.... so fuck that.....

oh did i mention that i still had to type out notes from my other meeting and send out to everyone? do you see me complaining & bitching about being late? fuckin' hell.... oh speaking of other group... ive decided to stay quiet in that one too cuz the same damn thing is happening, the girl who's on a rush attack will always end up accepting whatever just because she wants to leave... when i have a valid point/concern... the girl and the guy team up and claim that i dont "make sense" so it gets disregarded... even though the other 2 members think that i have a point... great.. i cant wait for this fucked up semester to be over..........

ps, i know i have a problem with ppl critiquing my stuff, but at least im man enough to acknowledge when im wrong and to accept other ppl's suggestions.... and honestly i dont think im hard to work with, (well mebbe i am only because im very in your face, but if you have a valid point, i would always listen...)
anyways, 2 am.. should sleep... so going to pass out tmr... will have to find time to finish my damn art assignments thats due friday... sigh.... more meetings tmr to look forward to... whoopie fuckin' do....

Fat & Smelly People Should Die

2005-06-12T16:16:00.000-04:00

June 12
Finally went home again this weekend, but its not like i've havent been home for a long time, its only been 2 weeks but during those 2 weeks was like a living hell... sooo much crap to do @ skool its insane, its like as if they think we have no lives and live for going to skool and spending the rest of the day doing hw or studying... ~_~" anyways, so many things happened lately... not that i could remember any of it cuz lets face it, im lazy and as i promised, i would update this blog less and less... hehee... um... well didnt do much this weekend, studied & that was pretty much it.... not that i could get much done, the heat made it really hard to concentrate... and was completely demotivated to do anything at all... but shit man.... i have so much stuff that's due this week too... :S especially since i have yet to start my paintings for my art class.... im 18 paintings behind... ~_~' and it'll prolly take at least a good 5-6 hours (that i DONT have) to finish.... just fuck me up the ass and say im screwed.....

um.... what else? hrm.... couple of other stuff happened... like how i have really really unreliable group memebers.... and since this sem is all about groups. im basically screwed yet again.... honestly, i couldnt care less if you go out drinking the night before our group meeting, but at least have the decency to finish you fuckin' shit before going.... why the hell are you penalizing the rest of the ppl in the group (well mostly just me) ??? what kind of sad ass excuse is "oh sorry i went out and drank last nite, so im really tired right now and dont have anything done, can we meet tmr instead?" uh... ppl have lives and plans... meeting on a friday is the last thing i wanna do, especially since i was trying to go HOME that fuckin' weekend.... and its like dude, if i was asleep and realize that i hadnt done my part and woke up to actually DO THE FUCKIN' THING.. then i think you ppl should too..... and in another group, have this guy who's i cant figure out if he's dependable or not... he doesnt show up for all the critical meetings and apparently has "legit" excuses, but i cant tell if he's pulling it out of his ass or not.... we made him put the whole finance assignment together cuz he missed out on a big meeting where we finished like 3 of the 4 questions on the assignment.... but even then, i had to write out 2 questions and someone else wrote another one... so basically he just had to write out 1 question, and then put everything together, but he STILL manages to NOT SHOW UP due to "car dying" in TO... WTF man... i waited an hour for him @ the skool when i could have been doing something else... so i ended up putting it together and everything... WTF......

yeah as if you guys couldnt tell, im on the bus right now which is why im typing insanely much... hehehe um.... cant remember all the other things that happened to me... well mostly about interviews for coop and me walking around outside in the 25+ degree weather in a full suit and sweating like a pig... anyways.... starting to get dizzy from all the reading.. ~_~" crap.......

Lego My Starwars

2005-05-19T16:15:00.000-04:00

Woo, time for another on the bus update! Lol… long weekend! Yay!!! But so soo soooo much crap to do…. Booo! :S so sad, I left the most important stuff @ home today while I went to skool… like my art assignment pages & video… so I had to run back home to get it right after class, and even though I made a list of all the things I needed to bring, I totally didn’t follow it or pulled it out when I got home… :S which made me leave the lecture tapes @ home… .frickin’ hell… ~_~’ well anyways… I timed it exactly right… well I figured that by the time I run home and go to the nearest bus stop, which was king & Columbia, I would be okay…. But I JUST missed the bus cuz I was like a couple of mins late.. which sucked ass cuz then I had to wait another 25 mins till the next bus…. Which made things super tight cuz by the time I got on the bus, it was 12 already and the greyhound left @ 12 30… and I still had to buy my ticket and hopefully find a seat… anyways, long story short, I made it ontime and after we stopped @ Cambridge to pick up more ppl, I pulled out one piece to watch…. By the time it was done, we were already in the outskirts of sauga already… wow! Im starting to love traveling on the bus…. No need to pay attention to the road or anything & wit my labtop, I can do whatever the hell I want! Hehe….

Last night’s TKD killed me…. Its prolly from the lack of exercise that I had during coop, and as I was recuperating from Monday’s class, they decided to throw in more warm up exercises…. That just practically killed not just me, but everyone right there and then… hahaha… by the time that we were done the warm up exercises.. everyone was just like dying… and then we went into kicking, which was fun, except me & maki did double of what was given cuz we were paying much attention and well…. Hahaa… lets just say by the end of the class I could barely move an inch, and was completely starved…. It was a great class!! And the night ended with me stuffing my face with food, lots of food, and playing naruto 2…. Mmm how I miss naruto …. I should have slept but I didn’t, which meant it took bloody forever for me to get up this morning for class… I was late.. but hey, late is better than not being there! Heheheh….

Is it bad that im going to try to play a game while on the bus??? Hahaha… its lego star wars… woo! And hey if it doesn’t work, I still have rollercoaster tycoon….. hehe… gotta love the live of a traveling student! (for now, next month will be soooo bad…. )

The Trip that Broke Me

2005-05-15T19:15:00.000-04:00

The Zehrs Marathon

I think i spent 2 hours (or close to) at zehrs today.... it was cuz nicole was giving me a ride cuz she had to do some grocery shopping & do some banking stuff @ PC as well... so i ended up spending close to 2 hours there... and i broke my record for buying groceries, topping at 74.62..... my highest until then was 62 i think.... oy! black pepper cost the most on my list and it was 5 bucks... honestly, i have no idea how i could have spent 75 bucks on groceries... ~_~" i think i will have to switch to frozen veggies instead of fresh ones soon .... but bleh i dunno.. i bought some stuff i didnt need, only cuz i dunno when i'll be able to go grocery shopping with a car.. im still undecided as to whether my mom should drive me back this weekend... :S
we'll see.. we'll see...

Procrastination Should be a High Paying Job

im at a point where i dunno what i need to do for hwk.. it seems like ive done most of the stuff... caught up on al my readings and everything... hrm... well technically i could start my marketing case, except i have no bloody idea what to do with it... :S there's like no offical format that i can copy off of... so i dunno where to begin... i have read it though, which is a plus.... but meh.... so sad.... and TV is on in 10 mins! starting with simpsons! then family guy! then quite possibly desperate housewives? lol..... i bought orange sherbert.. mmm..... cept im cold and feeling sleepy.. right now.. :S ~

The Awesomeness That is the Roomie

2005-05-15T01:13:00.000-04:00

I have found a husband!

Or so i would have if a) i had female reproductive organs, and b) if he wasnt already married....
hahahah.... wow... how life has turned around for me in the new house! i went from being the handy man of the house to being the person that needs the handy man's help! well okay so to top off mike's previous accomplishments, he has also completely put together living room, which is offically, a living room now (rearranged furniture and put everything all nice and in order)... told me that i could use his dvd burner to burn dvds.... as well as network the whole damn place so that i could use my labtop to burn things on his burner... OH, and i know i mentioned how he has a wireless adaptor so i could have wireless internet.. but u have no idea how COOL it is to have your labtop & computer in the same room and have both fully functional (i know i use to have that in my room too... but this is diff! cuz im actually in the living room a lot now! lol) and while my labtop is in the living room,, i can still be online!!!(tres important because im always dling things!) ahhh the wonders of wireless internet... anyways, just now he fixed the cable thing in my room (well turns out we just needed an extra plug to plug the cable outside of my room) and as soon as i can get my hands on a cable cord that is long enough, i will have TV in my room... how COOL is that!?!??! well he worked as a carpenter so he knows pratically everything... ohhh, did i mention that he's also installing a heat lamp in the washroom for the wife?? no more coming out of a hot shower to the cold cold bathroom!!! WICKED COOL! wow... im so amazed... & blown away! lol... i gots to bag me a roomie like that when i move out.... hehehehe... i know all this stuff isnt that hard, but pretty much too lazy.... and i have such great appreciation for the guy mostly because it feels good to not be the one ppl come to when stuff happens.. (not that i mind it, i enjoy it lots, but its a diff experience/feeling!) (it makes sense in my head... and i dont feel like explaining.. so just take my word for it! lol)

The Procrastination that is Video Gaming

I swear, RPG's will be the end of me... i made plans to do all my hwk and to at least start my marketing case.... but did that happen?? nope... i prolly spent at least 10 hours ever since thurs playing video games.... and have offically done mebbe 3 hours max of homework.... and i have 1 day left... to accomplish my goal... wow.. everything is packed in tomorrow... grocery shopping, clothes washing... and of course studying... :S damnit.... well i seriously need to get my act together.. because next weekend will be my "art attack" weekend.... catching up on 3 weeks worth of art assignments at once....! ~_~" hope it turns out okay...!!! or else i will be so screwed... :S anyways, need to get back to the world that is corporate finance.. .(as if i bloody care at all.... but a core is a core... and someday when im NOT using this shit... i will be thankful that i took it.... lol)

Peace.

The Evil That Is The Credit Card

2005-05-12T15:13:00.000-04:00

If I Were Anymore Broke, I'd Prolly Use Up $$ For My Next Life Too

Wow... so its like a boring thursday afternoon after 3 hours of gaming (yes 3... shhh!) and i decided to pay my credit card bills.... just because i was bored.... lol... shouldnt have checked at all.... 800 bucks later i am yet again forced to realize how broke i am... ~_~" ahhh.. life of a student.. .aint it grand??? How can one person spend so much $$?? Well for my mom's birthday, i paid for dinner & gas for the car... i bought a laser printer.... i got myself a tattoo.... charged some of my books on credit card, bought stupid art supplies for DE course.... thats already like almost 600 bucks right there.... and the rest was just stupid stuff like groceries, & other "regular" spendings... ~_~" frickin' hell man...how stupid am i to always forget to apply for the bursary???? EVERY SINGLE YEAR??? thats like 2 grand escaping my poor poor hands.... oy..... well.... hopefully i'll win the lottery or something... or else i'll prolly have to starve for the last month of skool... yet again.. ~_~" anyways...

The Calm Before the Storm That is Laurier 3rd Year

so much crap to do for skool.. dont even know where to begin... im like caught up so far... which will most likely change as soon as assignments and group projects undergo... starting next week.... crap! ive finally put down the due dates for all the stuff on my agenda and holy fuck.... there's at least 2 weeks where we have 3 things due ONE DAY AFTER THE OTHER!!! ohh and since we are in the summer now where the skool is practically BLOODY FUCKING EMPTY, why would they give us saturday exams!??!?? especially since only 2 of our cores have exams.... WTF??? laurier and their stupid admin system.... its like the spider justice system... guity until proven innocent... except here is screw with ya until you prove yourself to be worthy... !_! (not sure how that applies but shhh! lol)

Staying in loo this weekend.. no doubt it will either a)a productive weekend where i finish at least 1 of my assignments... or b)drunk and unproductive as always... hrmmm.. lol.. we'll see.. later.

Hardcore Racing

2005-05-11T22:18:00.000-04:00

I'm Addicted, Are You?

Have to say.... best game ever... Burnout 3.... why? lets go ahead and take a look..... inner city racing at a minimal of 125 miles per hour.... crashing and causing major havoc on roads to try to obtain the highest amount of nominal damage as possible.... deliberately try to wipe out other drivers on the road..... it has EVERYTHING!! the SPEED! the CARNAGE! the DESTRUCTION!!! synopsis: you basically race other cars.... if you beat them by taking gold place.. you win ALL the cars you race.... then there's the fact that your going as fast as you can and try to smash as many things as possible with a well placed "accident".. except your intentionally trying to crash in order to cause as much damage $$ wise as possible!!!!! & then of course there's my favorite... where the whole purpose of the "race" is to just take out others.... tones and tones of reckless driving and well placed smashes in order to blow up and destroy other ppl's cars..... how cool is that!?!?!? yes... i have been introduced to the best racing game ever.... and i am addicted... (ps... those of you who know me... know that i dont like racing games much.. but this one i cant put down!)

Power Outtage

reasons why waterloo suck??? its a small town... with apparently an even smaller power generator.... its only been 2 weeks since ive been here, and we've already experienced 2 power outtages! the 1st one was on the first day of skool... where apparently ppl on like the other side of the road of my friend's had no power/heat/hot water etc..... and then today it happened again, except it was on the other side of my road... lol... and i think it spanned all the way to conestoga mall.... which is a good 3,4 blocks from here... apparently UoW got hit too.. but laurier was spared.. which was PERFECT cuz i was suppose to have TKD tonight.. (been so looking forward since monday!!!) but... they sent out an email and cancelled it due to the outtage.. :S WTF!!! now i have to wait another 4 whole days!!!! :S might as well just kill me now... !!!! anyways... yeah... ppl in waterloo dont understand the concept of 4 way stopping when there's no lights..... it took my roomie like an hour and a half to go to conestoga mall (which is 5 mins from here) and to pick up the wife and to get back..... ~_~" i degress....

Laurier Does Something Right

2005-05-11T00:13:00.000-04:00

Freeeeee I Say!

WOoo .. havent updated in a long time... been a couple of days.... unproductive days... i should be doing so much hw and reading, but im not.. ~_~" im almost finally caught up... :S oy! but greetings! i bring good news from the loo! hahahah.. well for me anyways! turns out during the summer TKD is free.. absolutely FREE... you dont understand how happy i am....like FREEEEEEE happy...!!!! lol.... and i opted for TKD instead of softball.. which is a GREAT CHOICE! well despite the fact i could be using softball to meet all the other coop students, its not like we'll be friends or anything, ... we're too far into university life to start hanging around new ppl... everyone has their own lil groups and basically exclude/ignore everyone else (thats what i observe in class anyways) anyways... yay! that means the 45 bucks i had to spend on TKD could be used on my art supplies.. or or.. better yet.... BOOZE!!! bloody hell, i havent been drunk in a long time! and i doubt i'll get a chance once the work starts rolling in.. ~_~" (the wave of impending assignments of doom is upon me!)

Best Roomies EVER!

I have to say... WOW... the couple beside me, mike & nicole... are like the coolest ppl ever...! well not only are they my age but totally mature... but mike is great with electronic stuff... and by electronic stuff i mean like computers, internet stuff, videogame systems and home entertainment systems.... and by great i mean BLOODY AMAZING! cuz of him we now have a)40?45? inch bigass TV... all the home stereo system stuff... X box with all these pirated games that HE MADE.... with BOX & proper cover & EVERYTHING! ohh he has ps2 stuff too! yay me! lol.. b)wireless internet... (me labtop + wireless internet = FREEDOM.... ahhahahaha) c)cable tv & possibly satellite!!!! lol... yeah im ecstatic! and they are like the nicest ppl ever! considerate & totally cool! (mebbe cuz they're from a smaller town?? hrm..! i can sort of believe that... city folk are assholes.. i should know, im one myself... ahahahah) lol.. anyways.. yeah.. having a lot of fun! especially when the GUYS FINALLY OUTNUMBER THE GIRLS! lol... ahahah... im glad i can talk about video games and computers and all the guy stuff.... and not talk about my "feelings" anymore... ahahahah.... anyways... done procrastinating... time to get to work... till next time...

Lord of Forgetfulness

2005-05-08T20:27:00.000-04:00

Again, If My Brain Wasn't Attached

I'd lose it.... honestly.... how in the world did i forget to bring my cartridge paper for my color course.... i also forgot my salad dressing again (well not really, my mom put it back in the fridge so i didnt realize i didnt have it..) and my camera... which i was suppose to upload pics from this weekend.... and i also forgot deoderant, and all these other lil stuff... WTF man!!!.... im trying to not go back home much this summer and im already planning my next trip back... FUCK! :S oy.... i also opened up a brand new box of mushrooms.. even though i have week old mushrooms stored elsewhere in the fridge... crap.. i think im gonna get Alzheimers when i hit 30 or sumthing.... sigh......... and i swear, my memory use to be really really good.. i'd rarely/never forget things! crap......... my back is so itchy.... and i cant scratch..... .... its worst than tourture!!!!!

The Trio Strikes Again!

2005-05-07T01:11:00.000-04:00

Jokes are on the House

So the trio once again has been united to do the greater good... entertain us all with non stop jokes and giggles... LOL... wow.. had so much fun tonight wit kenny & roberta... i think the combination of jap food, roberta's inability to control her fine motor skills, kenny's sadly appropriate sexual inuendos and my skill to embaress myself and others within 5 feet of me in public put on such a great show... we started laughing before we were eating and by the time we were done... we were still laughing.... full... but laughing.. never ceases to amaze me @ the stuff we talk about during dinner... if i could write post the whole conversation, you'd prolly come to the conclusion that a) roberta cannot be taken out to the public... b) i have no shame... c) kenny shouldnt be allowed near children an d) we really are a bunch of idiots who knows how to have an amazing time... :P (despite causing a rukus and ruining everyone else's dinner withint 50 feet of us) afterwards we dropped off kenny @ a bubble tea place and me & roberta decided to go watch kingdom of heaven instead....

Orlando Bloom is Beautiful

Words from a dear friend who will give ppl the finger on command.... (AHAHAHAHAHHA) i have to say, kingdom of heaven actaully aroused my interest... although quite long and draggy during some parts, mixed with certain actor's inability to speak loudly or clearly. But nevertheless, i thought it was a really good movie... it portrayed the darker side of religion... and how people like to abuse it to suite their own needs and i thought that was pretty cool... of course orlando's bad acting made it totally unbelievable... (think black smith with a pretty flawless face... no scars, no marks, no wrinkles... and perhaps teeth white that shone enough to rival that stupid golden cross that kept poping up....) honestly, he does as much for me as about a rock and anyone would have been a better choice than him but i would have to say the worst part of the movie didnt come from the actors.... wow! there was the completely unbelievable (Warning warning, spoiler alert!)blacksmith turned mathematical genius turned army general (who knew how to defend a castle with spiffy gadgets) to a person who could mass "knighted" people like the minister in a las vegas massive wedding... Or the fact that the king's wife was so desperate for some orlando meat that she pratically threw herself at him... not once, not twice, but thrice... (each time was prompted with an inappropriate "slut" cough from me) did i mention that she was already married?? or the fact that in order to get the audience to see the director's point of view, a priest was reduced to giving up his faith in the blink of an eye... anyways... depsite my "rant" i thought it was a good movie though, because i actually learned a lot from it.. and well it did keep me occupied for 2 and a half hours of the night.. so kudos to them!

I Feel So Violated

lastly... i would have to say... that i feel so violated while i was @ the movies.... i was taking a leak when this guy came up and was doing his business in the urinal beside me... (seems harmless enough) UNTIL HE DECIDED TO OGGLE ME... out of the corner of my eye i totally saw him stare at me... DOWN THERE (i use my peripheral vision a lot cuz @ work i always have to "pretend" that im working when im not, so ive trained myself to see any dangers coming my way without directly looking around) and as i proceed to finish my business and wash my hands... i turn to see him still looking @ me.... no sense of DECENCY whatsoever!!! i mean come on man, thats not what public washrooms are for... if you want it so bad, go buy a porno... or dl online..... :S anyways.. woo... 2 already almost... gotta sleep...

See ya.

FUCKING LAURIER

2005-05-05T21:15:00.000-04:00

The School that is Disgraced

WTF.... okay so i was watching my DE video today and guess what??? the label SAYS lectures 1-9, but in the video the prof claims its the Workshop video... and normally, i really couldnt care less...EXCEPT AFTERWARDS, THE VIDEO ACTUALLY SHOWED HIM TALKING ABOUT STUFF... WHICH I THINK WAS THE LECTURE... EXCEPT THERE'S NO FUCKING SOUND...DAMN RIGHT IM PISSED... IM MORE THAN PISSED.... (the following will be in all-caps to express my outrage, sorry in advance) LAURIER GOES ON AND ON AND ON ABOUT HOW GOOD THE QUALITY OF THEIR FUCKIN' EDUCATION IS... AND WHAT HAPPENS? THEY MAKE ME PAY 1K FOR A DE COURSE AND GIVES ME VIDEO LECTURES THAT HAS NO SOUND.... IM NOT A DEAF MUTE.. I CANT READ LIPS FUCKER.... SO WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF I REALLY WASNT @ LAURIER FOR THE SUMMER?? THE SENDING OF THE TAPES BACK AND FORTH WOULD ALREADY DIG INTO 2 WEEKS OF MY TIME... THAT I SHOULD HAVE SPENT ON THE ASSIGNMENTS... wow... talk about QUALITY EDUCATION im getting... HRM... PROFS THAT #1 CANT SPEAK PROPER ENGLISH WHICH MEANS GOING TO CLASS = TRYING TO DECIPHER A NEW LANGUAGE, #2 PROFS THAT CAN SPEAK ENGLISH CANT TEACH IF THEIR LIVES DEPENDED UPON IT BECAUSE LETS FACE IT, THEY'RE FULL TIME JOB ARE CONSULTANTS... NOT FUCKING TEACHERS..... #3 EXAMS THAT DECIDE THE REST OF OUR LIVES SQUEEZED SO CLOSED TOGETHER THAT YOU CAN SEE BLOOD....STUDENT BLOOD FROM RIPPING HAIR OUT BECAUSE OF TRYING TO STUDY 4 MONTHS WORTH OF CRAP WITHIN 2-3 DAYS FOR 3,4,5 COURSES.....and now to add to the bloody fuckin' list...#4, SHOTTY DE VIDEOS THAT WASTE MY TIME.....
~~~~WELCOME TO FUCKIN' LAURIER~~~~

sorry... i may have over done it, but honestly... the longer i stay in this skool... the more shitty professionalism i see... now back to the regular scheduled programming...

A New Hair

i decided to get a hair cut today.. to start anew and regrow my hair the right way... damn good choice.. its like im almost bald now, but it was worth it.. the first thing the hair cut lady said to me was "wow you look really hansome"... then the next thing was "why is your hair so wrong?? you tried to cut your own hair didnt you???" after i explained that the stupid dumbass who cut my hair before did that to me she asked "wow... you did cut the front though didnt you? and the back??" to which i answered "no... its all her, she did it... she just took scissors and went across my head... and randomly took chunks off" and then she gasped... yeah GASPED... and said OH MY GOD... she DOESNT KNOW HOW TO SPEAK ENGLISH and she said OH MY GOD... i would have said OH MY FUCKING GOD... (which proves my previous theory of my hair looking like shit when ppl kept telling me it looked "fine"..) and then she told me that the person who cut my hair had no professional training and didnt know what she was doing.. I KNEW IT... STUPID BROWN LADY... keep cutting and smiling to yourself and saying looks good yeah? looks very good... take the good and shove it up your ass.... i'll see you in hell.... (sorry full of anger... still.. lol) anyways yeah... short short hair...

ohh and these were the comments i made while on the bus ride back...

Road Home

On the bus again... wow.. i love labtops... hehehe... so much time can be put to good use....! finally im going home... its been one hell of a boring week... :S so sad, class end so damn early and i have nothing to do... well "technically" i can/should be reading my textbooks, but obviously im not.. well i am but just not immediately… but damn, I have so much stuff to do for this weekend, skool work wise and :( well I just don’t have enough room to bring all my books home… :S hopefully I will go back early on Sunday so I can start on my hw… well at least I’ll get OB & marketing out of the way… OB is sooooo boring.. I don’t know how I can last reading like a whole damn chapter at a time and making notes….

Weekend Fun-in

Jap buffet!! Yay! Mebbe a movie…. Lol.. depending on whether Roberta has time to entertain us or not… hahahaha… meh… gotta shop around DT today for art supplies… carrying my ultra heavy bag… :S gotta make time to photocopy my textbooks too… especially since they are so damn expensive, I gotta get my money from somewhere! Lol…. but.. wow I realize on a per page basis, the most expensive book I have is prolly my art txtbook, there’s like 80 pages and its worth like 60 bucks… fuck…! Too bad I cant photocopy that and return it to DE.. cuz all my other textbooks have at least like 80 pages PER CHAPTER! Well not really that’s more like 2-3 chapters but meh… seems like its 80 pages!

Meat supplements!

2005-05-04T19:01:00.000-04:00

Mmmm.. Potatoes

I have found my substitute for meat! no, its not the 1.5 pounds of "vegetable grounds" (which took a record breaking 4 meals to eat!!! it should have only lasted for like 2... lol..) anyways, yup its potatoes... its filling, its nutritious... and i love potatoes!!! mmm... lol yeah... anyways, day 3 veggie style..... so ... much... poop... must share... LOL... anyways.... skool is soooo boring... i have so much reading to do... that i DONT wanna do.. but have to do :( boooo... looking forward to this weekend though.. lots of festivities! ie going out.. hehe..... i think i need to organize a drink-a-thon before the workload really starts to hit... ya hear that iulia??? drink-a-thon! with a funnel.... !

The Evil That Is Publishers

how can the damn publisher have the gull to justify saran wraping a txtbook for 1 measley piece of paper with some stupid internet code.... #1, its being WASTEFUL... #2... the greedy son-of-bitches use this ploy so that when we return the damn book without the saran wrap (yes i know its called shrink wrap... fuck you too), we have to pay a 10% re-shelfing fee... WTF!..... i swear.. the corporate world has taken over this bloody planet and is on the verge of taking all our money and raping us.... :( yes i have done my rant for the day..... and will go back to my mundane live... without my ps2... for.. 1 more night.. lol....

later.

P.S. i am offically 4 months preggo... my child's father is well.. me.. and my child's mother is.. well... 5 potatoes, a can of cream of broccoli soup, 2 bulbs of broccoli and a whole pouch of sidekicks... + an orange... lol.....

The Long Trek

2005-05-02T12:07:00.000-04:00

1st Day

I have Rose again for marketing.. which is really cool cuz i like his teaching style and i know what to expect. except that i made a fool out of myself by answering all the questions wrong... a lot of ppl remembered stuff from 1st sem... and well haha i could barely remember what i did yesterday :S but hopefully it wont be that bad... for finance, we had this prof from china who cant speak english properly.. well he can.. but he's enunciating all the wrong words... so its sounds really funny/hard to understand... a lot of ppl tried not to laugh... i hope it wont be too hard.. :S im scared shitless...! the walk to school was fine and it took a short time, mostly because i was wide awake, but i had to walk from skool to 202 regina and then to the coop office and then back home, which was "uphill" and well that just took forever.. lol... and i get to do it all over again in an hour when i go for the stupid coop meeting.. :S but but... its raining! :( meh.... im bored.. nothing to do... even though i should prolly do something.. but.. bleh... anyways.... yup that's pretty much my first day.. i will prolly read some of my stuff for my Color DE course.. lol

Prison - Day 1

2005-05-01T14:19:00.000-04:00

Transition

Today is offically teh first day of prison... inside waterloo for the summer... its also the first day of my attempt to transition to a veggie diet. Subsequently, my lunch consisted of a 4 egg mushroom/tomato/peppers omlette... and a can of beans.. which completely sounds gross, and it should... but its the only substantial thing that can tie me over... i know slowly reducing my intake of meat will help the transition, especially since i have such a big appetite... but i think its better for me to take the hard way.

Nothing-to-do-ness

I actualy dont remember how i spent my weekends in TO but it is completely and utterly boring in waterloo... i should prolly practice my guitar soon but... the comforts of my bed is preventing me from moving on... i should also do some housekeeping stuff, like buy a couple of things but i dont feel like going out, especially since its so cold... ~_~ bleh.. we'll see what happens...

Clutz - Guitarist for The Gigs

2005-04-30T19:51:00.000-04:00

WTF

Ive finally settled down in my new room for the next 4 months... sooo much stuff had to be moved & unpacked... its now like 8... almost... and ive been unpacking/doing stuff... ever since i got here at like 3 30ish..... had to rearrange everything over and over again to find a place for my guitar... & other stuff that i wanted a certain way... but... WTF... i am prolly the biggest clutz ever in the history of mankind.... ive couldnt find my glasses like a couple of days ago even though i ALWAYS put them beside me on the bed when i sleep... ive finally found them like half an hour later under the bedspread where i had left it perviously... but fuck! i was unpacking and i bought a new adapter for my amp and i cant remember whether i opened the package or where i placed it and now its FUCKING GONE.... and ive searched like every possible place that i could have put it... and its NOT THERE... OR ANYWHERE.... WTF... i swear, if my brain wasnt attached to my body i'd lose it too.... FUCK..... (im not mad.. well more like pissed and annoyed.... lol) and OHHH i COMPLETELY forgot to bring toner for my printer and the driver CD.. so AGAIN i have a printer that's not operational.... sigh.... ~~~

Lost & Found

I've finally found my amp jack... after uh... 4 hours of ransacking my desk... when i was JUST about to give up and buy another bloody one tmr, i find it hiding behind my watch ON MY DESK.... please... i wish to enroll myself into the institute for the mentally retarded... because.... therefore i am... ohh and i just killed another spider.... thats 3 insectoids in the past 6 hours ive been here.. ~_~"

Im in Love!

2005-04-27T22:51:00.000-04:00

Simplicity @ its Best

Never appreciated the acoustic guitar until i realize how much easier it is to listen to the strumming on just the vocals and the acoustic rather than the whole band..... especially when i can only hear the loudest instrument, which is usually the drums... hehehe... as a result im dling AOL sessions and acoustic versions like mad... but wow... AOL sessions are so cool! roberta told me about the new we believe video... stupid mtv didnt show the full video, only 12 seconds of it and much music... well its much fucking music.. they dont have jack shit.... :@ so yeah... soooo anticipating it... hrm.. and its not out on net yet... damnit! whatever happened to stuff being out online before it reaches TV??? the internet population has slowed down its pirating stuff... im appalled! Anyways.... my guitaring is progressing pretty well..... im kinda pleased.... at least i can play 2 songs and a half... not very well.. but its getting there.... kudos to me! hahahha...

Counting down

counting down the working days.... well not much of a countdown, only 1 day left..GOD PLEASE LET TOMORROW PASS BY QUICKLY... ive done barely anything for the past week.... mostly i just surf and surf and more surf... ohh and buy stuff online... and more surfing... ~_~" ive never pretended to work for so long in my life! lol.... i did get a farewell lunch though, which was great... cuz i also got a card and a gift card.... was really cool... althought it wasnt much of a farewell lunch, more of a get together cuz ppl basically just talked in their own lil groups... but hey, it pissed away a chunk of my time which was great!

Randomness

nothing much else is happening.. ohh, wendy's leaving... so have a safe trip!!!! ooohh i am contemplating on the international internship... but.. do i wanna go to developing countries? (mexico... chile, brazil, poland, china... mexico... russia, mexico...) yes mexico was named 3 times ~_~" i think the only place i actually wanna go would be poland.... although england/germany/denmark would definetly be my #1 choice.... mmm.... england... lol.. but i'll see how things goes... i might not get in and i might end up having to work @ the same place again... which wouldnt be so bad... but the only tragic flaw would be that it has absolutely nothing to do with my prog... oh well.. we'll see... .. leaving.. peace.

IT'S HERE!!!!!

2005-04-26T19:04:00.000-04:00

It's Here!

YAY! the COOLNESS that is a dualdisc is here!!!! Its so cool!!! well the album art is suppose to be like a really ancient book, like a spell book from harry potter with a latch ontop of it... well the CD case was modified into the shape of a book with an actual button to open it up!! sooo amazing!!! mmmm.... and the dvd side has a whole bunch of extra video footage! how cool is that!??! and it was only 15.99!!! i am totally addicted to future shop.. its so sad... anyways, enough about my new found joy... hehe

Certain People Should Not be Allowed Outta the House

HOLY FUCK man.. remember the guy i talked about a couple posts back with the dead skin flaking off his neck/ear/back of head?? well guess what?? i saw him again... and i didnt recognize him except for when he past by and he must have touched his head or something and his shit starting falling off... and landed like right on my jacket... (i was wearing a black jean jacket and well, his dead skin was white) SO FUCKING GROSS.... and then of course there's the philipino man who decided to remove his spine and therefore everytime the bus had to stop, he wouldnt be able to support himself and used me as support (translation: he leaned on me everytime the bus stopped.. .EVERY FUCKING TIME) and well basically since i got on the bus before he did, i didnt budge and relinquish my own personal space when he sat down beside me... which meant that he was "uncomfortable" apparently, causing him to fidget and move every 5 seconds.... which including trying to expand his thighs into my territory (and it wasnt like i was taking up a seat and a half, i was just sitting in my own spot), shifting his arms and elbows so they would be dangerously close to my face... and the scratching of the shaved head.... ( WHY DO PEOPLE DO THAT!?!?! ) fucking ass....

Scared Shitless

2 more days until im done my 1st ever workterm and back to skool!... so scared... not sure what to expect... gonna be hard... cuz all my friends will be away from me.... :( and no car = no groceries... oy..... well... this will prove my complete and total independence... and the fact that i am adult enough to actually take care of myself... (i dont plan on going back to TO for the whole summer, unless mebbe for special occasions) and well that scares me... anyways... enough ranting... but i must say.... chronicles of life & death is a really amazing album... screw all those ppl who hate GC because they think they arent punk, or rock, or are just sell outs... listen to their music, listen to the lyrics and hear them for who they are... theres not a lot of bands that i respect (like and respecting are two different things....) and they are one of them... well anyways.... gonna go.. peace.

A Very Loo Weekend

2005-04-23T20:31:00.000-04:00

God Hates Me

So of all the days he choose to have it rain... he decided that it should be the day that i move... recap of my moving disaster... morning, tried to fit my desk in my car.. (which was futile) after i gave up and decided to have lunch with roberta, it stopped raining, or at least drizzled... when i actually went to get my pick up from uhaul.. it decided to pour again.... so hrm.. my tv was soaked... my matress was soaked.. and so was all my wood furniture.. which i could live with, if only my DAMN TV wasnt soaked... now i wondering if i'll ever be able to watch it again.. ~_~" after when i finished moving.... guess what? the rain slowed down & stopped almost... WTF??? oh and btw, i had 20 mins to spare before the damn bitch closed her hair salon and (my haircuts take 15 mins max... i dont have a lot of hair or require a lot fuss over it) told me to come back on monday... i say... FUCK YOU.... i was packing and cleaning... manage to pack like 5 boxes of stuff.. i have no idea how its all gonna fit in steph's room with her stuff too ~_~" but i really dont wanna come back... again... even though my double side tape from my posters has ripped off some of the paint.. and has made it very noticable.. oh did i mention that my posters are all stuck together too??? i prolly spent a good 50 at least on them too... oy! & honestly.. cleaning is the worst thing ever... especially when your tub has so much hair down the drain it floods everytime water fills it up.... so to sum up my day... NOT VERY PLEASANT!!!

The Semi-Naked Run-In

So cuz i was moving i outside in the rain all day, naturally my pants were kinda wet... and i guess it doesnt help to accidentally pour water on myself as i was trying to clean... so being the lazy ass that i am.. and thinking that i was alone in the apartment (which i was!) i decided to chuck my jeans in the dryer and walk around in my boxers... it was great (lol) but i kept on having this nagging feeling that one of my roomies would burst thru the door and see me.. (they're all girls so.. it would be kinda inappropriate.. lol) so i was doing my own thing in the kitchen when i heard the door open (DAMN IT! Why doesnt anyone under the age of 30 lock their damn doors in Waterloo!?!?!? LoL) so i was thinking fuck me when my roomie's friends came by to pick up their bigass speakers (like literally bigass, it was industrial sized almost) and i was like uh... yeah... can you step back out for a sec... im kinda in my boxers.... cuz my pants are in the dryer... so they kinda laughed and went back outside while i grabbed my pants.... and the funny thing was... i was completely NOT embarrassed...i think i need to live with guys again... i miss being able to louge around in whatever the hell i want... lol....

Please Kill Me Now

2005-04-22T08:53:00.000-04:00

The King of Nightmares

Prelude:Slept @ 9, woke up @ 12 (surprisingly to pack) slept again @ 2 30ish.. mebbe 3? Result:The WORST NIGHTMARE OF MY LIFE..... I was in a barbershop trying to get a haircut... but for some reason, this kid, who's younger than me... decided i need my cavities pulled out instead....of course i had no idea and i was "numbed" from the anesthetics.. so he was yanking and i just thought he was pulling my hair that he was cutting.. until i realized he wasnt... i FUCKIN' FREAKED OUT.... & he was like oh yeah its no big deal but he kept on yanking... and it wouldnt come out.. so i had to help him and litterally PUSH MYSELF away from him to TEAR the TOOTH OFF.... it was attached to veins and everything... (HOLY SHIT!!!!) so then he continued with like 3 others and i realize that it was NOT a good idea, because i had started to feel him trying to yank out my teeth... (OMG...) so then after he was finally done well i refused to pay cuz i mean come on... going to the dentist is expensive.. and OBVIOUSLY i went for a haircut.. who knew that barbershops also did dental work!?!?!? so then the owner's whole family started hunting me down... results in me hiding and pretending i wasnt there, that i didnt go etc.. (was utterly stupid...) but then my parents decided that i should go see an actual dentist and the nightmare started all over again.... (WTF!!!!) i think he got the chance to pull out 2 more before i finally woke up..... HOLY FUCKING HELL.... ive always been more afraid of the dentist than anything else.. but this was just INSANE... i mean physical pain i can take... the yanking of teeth i cant... i have never been so scared in my life... EVER... Oy......and it would be SO nice if it was one of those dreams that i wouldnt remember when i wake up.. but nope... every gory detail....

Taxes

My mom told me that i'd be getting around 500 bucks from my tax return within the next 2 weeks... which jump-started my day... especially from that horrible horrible nightmare... so what do u know? i guess the tooth fairy does exist.. hahahah ~_~" so on the way to work i was SO thinking about how much food i can buy with the extra cash and how i will now... offically be able to feed myself... lol... all that was dashed when i got to work... as i proceeded to purchase an all-in-1 printer... (which was like 200 bucks) and now im contemplating on buy a case for my Ipod for when i go work out during the summer... but i also need a new skool bad cuz mine is falling apart.. and i also need a gym bag for TKD... frickin' hell... so many things i need to buy (NEED, not WANT!!!!) but not enuf $$... ever... sigh ~~~ i predict my horrible future will consist of items that i've purchased that cannot be consumed by the human body.... !_!

Lifestyles of a Teenager

2005-04-21T08:53:00.000-04:00

Fucked up Sleeping Habits

So for the past 2 days i've completely and utterly messed up my sleeping habit... well im guessing cuz im working an extra hour everyday so i dont actually get home till like 6 30 (rush hour delays everything!) and your bed is just so comforting... when your labtop's like right infront of you and you get to watch stuff while in bed... so i ended up taking a "nap" @ 8... and i dunno who im kidding but when you sleep at 8, there's no way you're gonna just "nap" well actually, i was waiting for a movie to reach the point where i was watching it the day before (its weird, some movie files wont let me skip ahead or fastforward, any attempt at that will make it start all over again ~_~") so without realizing... i slept for 4 hours, which is usually the avg of my naps... (HAHAH... yeah its not an actual nap, i know.. ~_~") so i woke up at 12am and watched my movie... did i stop after 1? nope.. i had to watch the best of will farrell... so i was laughing in tears till like 4 30 in the morning... then pretty much rinse and repeat again for yesterday, cept i slept at 9, and woke up at 3.. and slept again at 4 30... oy!... (yet surprisingly, im like really energetic.. i think its my teenage body (or what's left of it before i fully venture into adulthood kicking in on being able to function with less sleep)

FutureShop & online shopping

Roberta has got to be the root of all evil... hahaha, ive never been trusting enough to buy things online, cuz well basically im a clutz and i dont want to give away my CC #... but roberta has shown me the light... (or darkness.. hahah) and im so addicting to online shopping! most deliveries are free! (especially future shop!) and well its cheaper and convenient... and i dont have to go to the mall! & i can do it @ work... or during lunch! so i went ahead and bought a dual disk of GC (yea yea, shut up! lol) and damn its 15.99 canadian! most CD's cost 15.99 at hmv/music world... and its a dual disk! cd on one side, DVD on the other! no way in hell i wasnt gonna buy it! but they were out of stock.. so now i have to live with regret that a) i didnt buy it sooner and b) it will be in TO and i will be in Loo by the time they get stock and ship it out... and its actually cuz of online shopping/banking that actually got me to remember my CC #... how messed up is that!?!? im turning into a girl...! (sobs in tears..) lol...

The Big O

2005-04-19T17:59:00.000-04:00

Chocolate Addiction & all the like

God, what would i do @ work without iulia???? i'd die of boredom, thats what! she makes my day... all so happy... hehehee.... our conversations are so interesting, despite the fact that we try to get on each other's nerves (not on purpose. or mebbe...?) mostly me on her.. hehe...

JB: im hungry... i hope that walking will make it go away...
Me: you're just fooling yourself... hunger urges are like sex urges.... they dont go away until you satisfy them...
JB: omg....! your so cruel....i want to kick you in the head.....
Me: why? how am i cruel? because its true?
JB: yes.... which makes it even more cruel..... omg... i should hit you....

Sales Lady @ pharma plus: you like them? (referring to the reese pieces she just bought)
JB: yes! i love them.. they're so good! (laughs)
Me: yeah... they're so good she's having the big O right now...
Sales Lady: ahh.. hahaahah (laughs softly)
JB: yeah.. (laughs uncomfortably)
as we walk out of the store...
JB: i really want to hit you.... (laughs)
Me: why? its not like she understood a word i said... or else she wouldnt have laughed with us...
JB: thats true...
Me: I love this country and the non-english speaking people....
(laughter ensues....)

see.. what would i do without her??? :)

Daily Weirdo Rant

So i've come to realize that all the weirdos on my blog come from the TTC.... so i might as well make it daily thing (not because i want to.. mostly because they just show up like a bad rash...) Shall i talk about the Kid today with a weird habit?? or the chubby man with BO? or the rude bitch who decided that she was king and tried to cut infront of me while getting on the bus? Well since the latter two are more about people with no self respect... lets talk about the kid first... Okay.. so he's korean... he's tall, but not lean... and he dresses up like a thug... black T, white zip up sweater with stains... (he stood right infront of me... not like im trying to dissect him with my eyes on purpose, + what else are you going to do on the bus ???) and jeans that's half way down his thighs.... has those stocking shit wrapped around his head + an unbent baseball cap... even though its 29 degrees outside... ~_~" so since the pole was right beside me, i got the privilege to stare at his fingers... which were.. get this...covered in a clear coat of nail polish.... how did i know? well #1 they were like inches away from my face.. and #2... it was shiny.. like the kind tiffany & roberta wears..... :S i was like uh... korean thug wannabe in clear nail polish... who fidgets uncontrollably with his fone... !_!" and ppl think that im weird when i wear black nail polish???? Okay next.... man with BO... sat right beside me and read the paper... nothing wrong except his arms were like stuck to mine.... there was enuf room for him to not touch me because at certain points his arms wouldnt be touching mine... but for the majority of the trip it was like my extra appendage... and then when he got up i almost threw up right there... he had i guess dried scalp? or dried skin? or something DEAD white flakes from his ear all the way down and across the back of his head/neck.... sooo gross....... lastly the bitch who tried to cut infront of me.... she was BEHIND me... and honestly i thought she would have DIED if she didnt get ahead infront of me to get on the bus... as if that 3 seconds was so precious to her... (im guessing it was because she wanted to get a seat..) but Fuck woman... its 3 seconds...... if your gonna cut, do it with dignity and screw everyone in line, not the guy infront of you...!
so normally i wouldnt have said anything but the heat got the better of me and i was like "excuse me, i was infront of you in line" and semi pushed her away... well more like elbowed (because she elbowed me away).... ~_~" ppl you see on the bus....

I Saw A Genie On The Bus

2005-04-18T08:58:00.000-04:00

Tales from the Golden Slippers

I think i should make a log of all the weirdos i see on the bus... Today i saw a dark african american lady.... her face was long and plump and she has a freckle? in the middle of her forehead near the bridge of her nose.. she was wearing thin pants that had a camo pattern (ive dont remember wat they were called) and at the bottom of her feet attached to black pantyhose... were a pair of golden slippers... exactly like the one genie wears in aladdin... except her's has tiny holes in them (im guessing the fabric pattern?) and they were in the form of high heels... but its basically a slipper with a heel attached, cuz the thing itself is like slipper material, really plyable... ~_~" all i have to say is.. .WOW

Desperate Housewives

Just a quick mention that i caught all of the desperate housewives episodes that i had miss, which was approximately 4 in 2-3 WHOLE MONTHS!... abc really need to kick it up a notch.. but other than that, i am THRILLED to find out that kenny is totally addicted to it too... which means i will have someone to talk to about the dangerous excapades that go on in that show.. not to mention we share the same favorite episode, for very very different reasons... (that guy has a really jerkish face... which leads me to not take him seriously when he's desperately trying to figure out whether he's gay or not.. lol)

Once Upon a Veggie

So as i try to type with a crippled left hand from practicing my guitar i am proud to announce that i have triumphed over meat for the first time.... couple months back i have made a conscious decision to not eat meat, mostly because i feel that i need a change in my life amongst other things and well... we all know how hard is it for me, being a HUGE meat eater and all... well ive been progressing to having mostly veggies for dinner into having only veggies for dinner... (i still had meat for lunch, which is kinda bad i know, but my mom packs my lunch and she thinking about the hungry beast that is her son, packs on the meat... and well there's no point in tell her yet cuz that's just gonna double her cooking, & it would "concern" her that im not eating any meat...) anyways, today was my triumph.. well 1st big step... i had to cook tonite cuz mom was working the late shift... so i made stirfry veggies and BBQ pork.... and i am a HUGE pork fan... especially BBQ pork, which is quite possibly my most favorite type of pork... so i was contemplating on whether i should give into my desires and lust and eat it... and in the end, i didnt have any, even though as i was in the living room i could smell the aroma and was LITTERALLY salvating....! so damn proud..! lol... its a huge accomplishment for me... the big meat eater! u cant take that away from me! hehe.... (im kind of worried about what type of veggie food i can cook while inside loo... cuz u know, limited access to grocery store.. hopefully it'll work out!) btw, i ate dinner prolly an hour ago... and i am hungry already.....oy!

Cookies Up the Wazoo

2005-04-17T09:44:00.000-04:00

Oatmeal Cookies

So i decided to go on a baking frenzy yesterday cuz it was my mom's birthday.. well technically its not true.. (well technically it is... ahahah) only cuz i had a huge stick of shortening (which ive decided to call lard, because IT IS.. it says all vegetable... but at the grocery store, i saw the other version said LARD.. ~_~") and yeah i bought 2 sticks so i wanted to finish at least one... :S i also bought 2 sticks of butter that i thought i needed but i didnt... thats what you get for criss crossing recipes... ~_~" so in total i spent about 10 bucks on fatness yesterday.... and the return? 250 oakmeal cookies. They're SO good!!!! and they're not super sweet like othe cookies, which is perfect (well mostly cuz i decided to take off like half the sugar amount..... :S) will definetly bring them to work on monday, since everyone @ work was jokingly complaining that i never bring any cookies... lol.. if i have any left, i will mail them to you kenny :P or well just wait for me to make some more, cuz i still have that extra stick of shortening.. but i did run out of flour... lol...

X 1999

I had to rewatch X 1999 cuz well it was a good story (a bit too long and draggy if you ask me, even though its only 24 episodes lnog) but the fighting (whenever they had it) was amazing! mmmm.. magical powers are great...! i need to live in a different era... or better yet dimension... lol... i am such a superpower freak ! hehe.... but i would not want something stupid... lol... can you see me as the "noid" ? the power to annoy? LOL... WOW.. i should not have asked that, cuz i know most ppl will say yes and that i already do this... ahahahaha... TOO FRICKIN' BAD! :P anyways, here's the best wallpaper ever!!! if i can now only learn to use photoshop and make it amazing and spectacular!

Spoka

I finally bought my spoka! and well... it was a LOT smaller than i had expected, but it is really really bright and cool looking! :P hehehe...im kind of paranoid at what happens when the bulb is busted though :S cuz i dont think you can change it at all, u'd have to throw it away i suppose.. :S

Randomness

2005-04-15T10:34:00.000-04:00

Alcoholic Fudgsicle

I was starting to addict myself to fugsicles despite my developing cough..... and then i had one that claimed it had "chewy fudge center" It turned out by "chewy fudge center" it mean "chewy vodka tasting center" and litterally i tasted like shots of vodka... and not the good smirnoff twist kind.... made me wanna practice my projectile vomitting... :S it was so gross... :S and the sad part was that i didnt get a buzz.. lol.. but yeah i decided to eat around the "chewy fudge center" instead... making me look like an idiot on the subway fidgeting with his popsicle... hehe...

Ghost of my Past

2005-04-14T12:54:00.000-04:00

My Past is Haunting Me

Yeah so today @ work i decided that i would lose my ID card... again... oh and did i mention that this is my TEMP ID card that i got BECAUSE i lost my first one? Its like my childhood all over again, losing house one set of house keys after another..... and im pretty positive i remember yesterday as i was about to get off the bus i was shoving my ID card into my bag... how the hell did i manage to lose it?? frickin' hell... and i swear, i should have known that my childhood is coming to haunt me because i had a frickin' dream about chinese skool.... and how completely un-chinese certified i was.... which was really funny (the dream) because iulia was there scribbling away during our test while i couldnt remember a damn thing.. and then come smart guy came and taught me how to write it... ohh... but the weirdo thing about it was.. it was a dream.. so TECHNICALLY i was teaching my damn self how to write those words.... lol... ~_~" so yeah... i hope that nothing else from my childhood decides to come a knockin'... because im gonna start repressin'... (LOL)

Video Games:1500 Me: - 5

2005-04-13T15:30:00.000-04:00

The Losing Battle

So i was playing video games instead of going to sleep yesterday and just when i was about to stop fully satisfied with myself, i did something majorly stupid, which was buy something my character cant use. It cost me 50 FRICKING PLATINUMS (sorry for all this game bitching.. lol) but the currency goes from copper, silver, gold THEN PLATINUM... so basically i spent 50 thou on something i couldnt use... (which was half of my savings.. lol) and it took me A LONG time to save up.... what a pain in the ass.... anyways, the more important thing was that it led me to continue gaming till at least if not almost 12, when i should have stopped at 9:30.... frickin' hell. why i choose video games over sleep i dunno... but i do.. mebbe cuz im a guy... so now that its 2 days in a row ive gotten like 5 hours of sleep and faced the computer for like 18 hour days... :S so bad for me i know... but well skool i starting.. so i might as well get use to the lack of sleep because ive been sleeping for at least 8 hours everyday in my comfy comfy life as a coop.. and this lack of sleep thing is a huge thing for me when im so use to sleeping so much, has given me a side effect... my natural high is kicking in almost full throttle (give it a couple more days) and i am more spunky than ever... and i can only use the word spunky because ive realized i no longer pay attention to what i say or how loud i say it, i just say it... which isnt a good idea considering my long history of "foot in mouth" disease... oy! I need some way to spend this energy but TKD is so unreachable right now... damnit! (which is why ive been exercising a lot more now, as well in a sad attempt to look a lil bit better before summer actually hits) OY! lol

Flat Out Broke

So for the first time in these 4 months ive realized how poor and broke i am... even with a paying job... :S well i guess its that stupid art course that im taking... ~_~" set me back but... well the refund from the skool from last term should have covered it... Oy.. :S so sad.... and i thought i was so ontop of my money ..... well i was, before i realized i had all these other things that was gonna bleed me dry... like books, rent... and well im guessing buying an Ipod and a nice watch didnt help my cause... Oy!... mebbe i'll live on cans of beans... a guy can do that right??? lol... as long as i dont turn into a massive atomic bomb from the beans.. lol... i was thinking about going veggie anyways.... (sigh, i miss waterloo wings...! lol) in the words of Asakura Yoh... things will work out... (hopefully!)

Jap Rock

Wow.. so as i listen to predictable in Japanese.. i cant help but laugh.... and well i can honestly say that joel has a pretty accurate pronunciation of the words... but im guessing cuz its in jap, he's like stringing everything together and takes like no break.. (mebbe cuz the song is fast too?) but it sounds... more like indian than jap... lol.. which is completely hilarious... well they could only translate like the 2 verses, the rest had to stay english... but im guessing that he had a hardtime as it is remembering it... hehehe... but yeah, just proves that jap & rock "honto honto" doesnt go together... japanese was named the most beautiful language in the world (audio wise) and well rock music requires a completely different set of tones... harsh and solid.... although i have to say a LOT of diehard fans of rock bands are japanese, and they always tour in japan, but none ever go to HK... ~~ well not that its a bad thing, cuz HK has enuf pop stars already and has never really opened up to other culture's music (even though they steal songs and melodies from them like ALL the time)... well final word is that they just need to call come up here to go ol' Canada...!

I Have Found The Technocolor Dreamcoat

2005-04-12T10:13:00.000-04:00

The Dreamcoat

As my spirit departs from my body in search of a nice soft bed for hours of sleep that i've lack, i will attempt to talk about my encounter with the "dreamcoat". As usual i was taking the subway to work when out of the corner of my eye i spot a rainbow colored coat floating my way. Surprise to see something so mind-numbingly colorful i turned my head at the monstrosity. The skin of the coat was black, but the scales that laid ontop of it was in a zuberant of colors. As the coat approached closer and closer, i saw that indeed the scales like sequins were long and rectangular, in rows of 3 per color. The coat got on the subway at the same stop that i did, and proceeded to sit within my range of sight, tempting me to stare and delve into its secrets. What i saw later on was shocking and quite possibly not for the faint of heart. The coat was wearing this middle aged old lady... who's hair was red, but in reality resembled an orange clown wig. The features on the lady was just as shocking as the coat itself, wearing Hot pink runners laced in a neon green. Her face had a deep red lipstick smile like those of old grannies, and her purplish titaninum framed glasses had an arc of purple and green beads attached from one end to the other. No doubt this was the power of the dreamcoat. I pity the poor human whom the coat was wearing... if she could only look in the mirror and realize... that the cirus had ran off without her... As we stopped at Finch station, everyone hurried off except the coat, eager to stalk its next victim... BEWARE THE DREAMCOAT!

Daily Post about Work

okay so i lied, im not posting about work.. well i am, but it was more of how "zombie-like" i was today after sleeping for like 5 hours instead of the usual 8 that i have oh so joyously been accustomed to... is this a sign of old age!???? i once mocked my mom for getting tired after dinner and completely passing out before 10 and yet here i am repeating her routine, a good 20 years earlier... ! oy... and all my other jobs before always had early starts, hotel wake ups were around 5 30am, wonderland was around 7 30ish and even Trow was like around 6... but i never did sleep till at least 12... :S am i dying?? if so... is it possible to stop??? lol oy.... its going to be hard to get rid of this routine... i fight oh so hard during weeknds and only manage to stay up late 1 out of the 2 possible nights, and thats only if i have something to do..... eek anyways today was a bitch, i had a lunch & learn again, which is basically learning about software and having meetings during lunch time .... the combination of food and lecture on Smalltalk reminded me the good ol days (& scary) of going to class after lunch and how i'd conveniently fight a losing battle and end up taking a slightly drooling nap on the desk... scary cuz i couldnt care less in skool but i couldnt do that here... :S yet i did.. 3 times in fact... thought that i could pass it of as "blinking really SLOWLY" lol... didnt work well.. my head "jerked" suddenly when i realized that i fell asleep (lol) and when i felt the cold air from the vent above me... strange how as soon as you fall asleep, your body temperature is more succeptable to the environment around you (ie the cold air that makes you shiver non stop in a horrible attempt to wake u up)... my supervisor's boss caught me dozing off.. luckily he was just so happy to be there he and a couple of other ppl (mostly ppl who sat in the center (ie me !_!) dozed off too... i was later nicknamed "sleeping beauty" shall i take that as a compliment? i think i shall.

Tribute to Mothers Everywhere

2005-04-11T23:55:00.000-04:00

Thank You Mom

Always, Always and Forever [x2]
I'm sitting here
I'm thinking back to a time when I was young
My memory is clear as day
I'm listening to the dishes clink
You were downstairs
you would sing
songs of praise
And all the times we laughed with you
And all the times that you stayed true to us

Now we'll say, I said I thank you
I'll always thank you
More than you could know
Than I could ever show
And I love you
I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do
to say these words to you
That you're beautiful forever

Always, Always and forever

you were my mom, you were my dad
The only thing I ever had was you, It's true
And even when the times got hard you were there
To let us know that we'd get through
you showed me how to be a man
You taught me how to understand
the things people do
You showed me how to love my God
You taught me that not everyone
knows the truth

And I thank you
I'll always thank you
More than you could know
Than I could ever show
And I love you
I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do
to say these words to you
That you will live forever

Forever and ever [x2]

[x2:]
I said I thank you
I'll always thank you
More than you could know
Than I could ever show
And I love you
I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do
to say these words to you

That you will live forever

I think this song is really really cool... its rare to see musicians, a rock band nonetheless, write and sing a song about thanking their mother... the lyrics hit the spot... its not everyday that we show our mothers how much we love them, and i think we should thank them more often... just for being great... I love the lyrics in this song... its one of the very few "non feel bad about myself" songs that has lyrics that i really like. The whole song just sounds amazing.... totally blown away...
Im pretty sure you all know who its by... my fav band, Good Charlotte.. And honestly, people will judge as soon as they hear their name but this song... just listen to it... it if doesnt immediate make you want to go hug your mom and tell her that you love her then you arent human....

Head Explosiveness

2005-04-11T20:40:00.000-04:00

Busy me = Unconscious me

Wow, so was like kinda busy today, well sort of... my supervisor was sick so i was basically free to rule with an iron grip and to do whatever the hell i pleased... Which mean non stop emailing roberta & passing time by reading interesting crap from Dooce... LOL... nevertheless i did do more work than usual, and even had to stay late cuz of meetings.. (gotta love those meetings... hehe, they just piss the time away!) So despite my better judgement i sent an email to my supervisor with some funny "boss" stuff from dooce, and well i didnt get a response... which makes me worried... was she completely offended?? :S i dunno.. well she sounded like she wasnt upset @ me this morning when she called in.. so hoping it didnt go too badly... hehe... so cuz it was just so nice today, i had like an ubber amount of energy this morning... which kinda died as the day went by as my eyes started hurting from staring @ the comp all day and my mind being fuzzy... :S as i wind down now i feel icky... cant think properly and everything :S ive decided to call it overworking, and i dont care what iulia says about how much (or little) i work... hehehe.. its really tiring to stare at the screen all day and do mundane things..!! i really rather be busy non stop doing meaningful things... :S meh...

Spiffy New Layout

2005-04-10T21:54:00.000-04:00

Layouts

Okay so its "not" a completely new layout, but i did spend an enormous amount of time on it.... well basically i fiddled around with it for a while, learnt me some simple CSS and Ta-Da!... hehe... Notiable mentions include the new pics i will be posting ever so often... that took a HELL lot of effort to impliment, blood and tears man... (read the post before about trigger fingers :S) and i STILL ended up using html instead of being an lazyass and using the uploading prog... haha.. oh well.! ohh also the new "quotes" section... where i'll put random quotes that are just slapstick HI-larious.... anyways yeah i really like this one... i kinda wanna put his name up but then i know there will be times when its like a random person that no one knows and its more funny this way.... cuz its out of context.. hehe can anyone guess who?? :P

Weekend Woes

Nothing interesting happened this weekend... :S in fact, it went by so quick that i didnt get to do anything interesting... :S which is why im bored out of my frickin' mind.... well i did manage to sleep 12 hours lastnite.. which was a + hehehe.. but meh... i need something exciting!!! I guess i'll sleep early while im ahead... (yeah right!) TTC strike starting tmr... oh woe is me.. not really, considering i dont have a "specific" time i need to show up, well technically i do, but no one cares as long as i work the hours, and i have a good excuse.. so no waking up extra early for me tmr! hehe... oy... chaos in the roads.. here i come a knockin'... :S (dont ask... i say/do weird things out of boredom..!) Anyways, prolly more improvements on the site later on... gotta spice it up!.. (btw, some weird guy who likes to post drawings of ppl having sex? i guess? left me a comment :S) I AM NOT A GIRL... DESPITE MY TITLE & WHAT MY FRIENDS SAY! hehehehe... :P

The Trigger Finger Strikes Again

2005-04-09T15:51:00.000-04:00

Trigger Finger

Wow, so i completely should have READ the damn instructions.... i was trying to upload files onto my blog by using picasa2 instead of using HTML cuz i was too lazy to find a FTP site to store my files... was that a smart idea?? COMPLETELY NOT! i didnt like how it stored like every single one of my media files in picasa so i was rummaging thru the stuff and decided that deleting it would not clog up my work space.. bright idea?? BLOODY FUCKIN' NOT... turns out that when you delete things off picasa, it DELETES THE FILE FROM YOUR COMP... did i bloody know that?? NO.. why? cuz other similiar programs like itunes etc that stores your files only deletes it off the folder, not from the actual location of the file.... so i completely LOST all my MV for Blink/SP/Sum/GC, Movies, Anime, and other pictures that ppl sent me.... Wow...so frustrated right now... :@ and angry.. cant forget the bitter angriness...

Buying Things

So i went to ikea and lightened my pockets... :S i buy such stupid things... like stands for my tiny lil speakers... for the living room... pots and pans and knifes for the loo when i move back in, cuz everything i have inside right now needs to be written off :S damn... and the one thing i actually wanted to buy, Spoka... i couldnt find.. (sorry roberta!).. oy! Well i did manage to go buy my watch.. yay! well i went to this timex store and thought that it would be cheaper cuz its a distributor but i couldnt find it.. so i ending up going to pmall :S damn... well i did haggle, so i paid like mebbe 10 bucks less... :S sigh.. not much i know, but i really wanted it .. its a TOTAL rip off though, considering it was only 65 in the states... too bad they dont deliver here... damn, everything i want is in the states and canada has like nothing... :S sigh...

I dunno why its so fuzzy, but its the only way i could make it like HUGE... hehe.. yeah its not very flattering, in fact, its downright disgrace to the watch itself... soo much better in RL... (drools)

These two pics were taken with my cell @ work... haha... it embodies the spirit of coops, this is what we do for fun.. hehe (iulia provided the orange and clothes, i drew the face... and it took a LOT of convincing from me so she would let me stab him with the knife... well mostly cuz it was starting to rot... we even named him... but i forgot.. teheheheh ^_^")

Groggy & Pissed

2005-04-08T08:24:00.000-04:00

Blogger My Bloody Ass

Okay, so i spent most of lastnight trying to figure out what was wrong with this god forsaken site... (that and talking on the fone with roberta... lol... remember the gold old days??? when we use to do that till like 3 in the morning?? good times baby, good times!) anyways ever since they implimented the stupid "change" (im assuming cuz it worked fine a couple of days ago when i JUST fixed it) i cant seem to post at all... stupid "document contains no data" pulls up from firefox... annoys the hell out of me... reminds me of window's blue screen of death :S tried IE and the page didnt load (which is the same as "document contains no flippin' data"... long story short... very VERY dissapointed & pissed, this POC (piece of crap) site is SO unuser friendly... and if i hadnt made so many goddamn bloody posts i would prolly move back to xanga... hrm.. mebbe i can RSS feed it from xanga..... would be a hell of a lot easier... :S frickin' hell... (yeah... obviously very pissed) and its not just me, a lot of other ppl are experiencing the same problem...! but roberta's not..... (evil eyes!) lol... and its kinda useless having a link that says "write blogger support" when the bloody thing pulls up the same "document contains no data my ass" crap... :@ :@ :@...

TTC Strikes Back

Okay so i thought it would be appropriate in light of the soon to be strike on monday (oh come on, u know it will happen..) ive decided to make a list...

Top 10 Things I Hate About TTC

10. The constant fear of depending on idiots who wants to strike in order to get more perks... as if making $18-24 per HOUR isnt enuf for them... (boo hoo, i make a hell of a lot less and all you do is drive the frickin' bus..) (engineers and mechanics get paid double of that.. )
9. Smelly weirdos who have been living in a cave for the past century or two, and has not yet learned of the simple pleasures of deoderant and perfume and just love to sit right beside you
8. Maniacs who either drive like Sandra Bullock in speed, or like a granny on sunday morning... but never.. NEVER the appropriate speed, god forbid...
7. Subway Conductors that decide to speed up upon entering Sheppard/Yonge subway, cuz you know, tight turns and tossing ppl into the nearest object is just SO much fun!
6. Passengers on route of said subway as above stampeding through as if missing that Yonge subway that's possible not there yet would mean the lost of 2-3 mins of their precious precious life
5. Smelly weirdos who...
4. Bus drivers who deem necessary to stop for long periods of time, despite the fact that ppl are in a hurry and especially stopping for 5-10 mins at the stop right before yours every single day just to spite you
3. Taking so long...... it doubles the traveling time of in a car, (and yes i do realize that as soon as they strike on monday, the time it takes to travel on a car will double that of the TTC)
2. Weirdos who a)talk to themselves and look at you while shaking their heads... b)deems it necessary to have an unhealthy amount of hair growing on their head to whiplash you with... c)sleep drooling idiots who decide that the frightened girl's shoulder beside them is the best place to place their heads d)all of the above
1. "large" people who think its okay to take up a seat and a half, (most likely because they cant stand for long periods due to the reason stated) and not to exclude the most hated of all... men with small pee-wee's who decide that the best way to show of their manliness is to SPREAD THEIR LEGS AS WIDE OPEN AS POSSIBLE (perhaps for ventilation of their lil buddies) WHICH IS JUST AN OPEN INVITATION FOR A SWIFT KICK AT IT WHERE THE SUN DONT SHINE...the result? same as above... rendering you with less than half a seat to sit on and worst... no where to put those things you call legs.

Hehehe, well there goes my rant.. feel free to comment and join in, im sure you've experienced at least one of said symptoms above! anyways, its only cuz ive become pretty good wit the "motion sickness" thing (mostly a childhood trauma of my dad driving like a maniac) and i can actually read for like half an hour and up to 20-30 pages now before i start to feel nauseous, as oppose to before when less than 5 mins and a paragraph would have done it...

A Week of Doing Nothingness

2005-04-07T14:05:00.000-04:00

Fudge Popsicle

As i stare at my comp rapidly eating my melting fudgsicle i ponder what ive done for the past week.... my answer? absolutely nothing... everyday i open a couple of work related browsers and surf the net in a small window in the corner... well i actually do work, but its just regression, which means i basically click a couple buttons and wait for hours...:S my new computer has failed me... every passing day i get more and more problems with "false negatives" and ive come to the conclusion that my computer is out to get me. Ive been handing my supervisor so many "false negative" errors that ive almost given up on it... and the stupid thing is that im the only one who's coming up with these false negatives and im pretty sure i pissed off a lot of ppl with my problem... even though its not my fault... :S oy!

Dooce

Dooce has been my life sustaining website here... i go on hours at a time reading all the funny and weird blogs that she posts as well as all these other things bosses have said to other ppl in the comment section... all i have to say is WOW to all the weirdos that are out there... my most recent "hilarious" quote is : It’s not what my boss said, but rather what my boss did: He farted in my cubicle, albeit accidentally. And when I started to say, “Did you just—” his eyes opened up really big, then he covered his face and said, “YES!” as he ran away like a little bitch. It was hilarious.

how can you not burst out laughing? (as i desperately try to muffle my laughter... :S)

New & Improved

2005-04-06T10:08:00.000-04:00

Improvements

Presenting the new and improved.... blogiary! To further serve our customers better, we have opted to make vast changes to the site, including the addition of subjects found within each blog for fast skimming purposes, so the user can read what interests them and skip what doesnt Coming soon this weekend, Pictures!

Hehe.. wow i sound like a commerical... meh yeah so a lot of ppl have been complaining about my blogs being too long so thats why they dont read it, so hopefully this will help a bit, i would write less, but thats what i do @ work... it will get short when i start skool... hehe (mebbe) unless tones of intersting things happen while im @ skool.. :P

Ohh and about my title... hehehe... well thats just like an inside joke..

Warp Tour

Wow... so i got all excited cuz the warp tour was playing in Canada actually and i was looking @ the time and i thought wow, july 30th would be perfect, its a saturday and its early enuf so that i dont have to worry about exams... guess what? i completely forgot that university kids only has 3 months of skool per sem and the last month is reserved for exams.... WTF... sooooo bummed out... sigh..... why do they do that??? all these stupid concerts on exam dates.... i think university students would be more willing to go to a concert than lil HS kids... (which apparently im still one of... :( ) well... i guess the consolation is that GC isnt playing.. but the offspring is! and so's MxPx, All American Rejects & a couple of other bands that i like... boooooooo :(

The Apple Made Me Upset -- Blink Did Worst

2005-04-05T10:07:00.000-04:00

Apple

so i decided to stroll to the apple site on a bored routine hoping to find my air play available for purchase.... and surprisingly it was!!! i got all excited and emailed kenny about it too when i decided to check the canadian version of the apple store and to a HUGE dissapointment, its not there..... ontop of that, i was reading some of the comments and a lot of ppl complained about static... which is the worst enemy of car radio stations... :S damn... kinda dissapointing, mebbe i should just opt for a itrip instead... :( but i really dont want to program a whole bunch of crap into my ipod.... sigh... ohh and i found out yesterday that my ipod has a bug, cuz apparently all the new ipods are having trouble adapting to the old firewire updater patches, so it pulls out this weird "corrupt" file thing.... i read a bit about it online, it doesnt do anything to your ipod, but its annoying to look @ when a 300+ machine is always constantly showing up with flaws when you plug it in... anyways... upsetting...

Shaman King

ooohh so im almost done watching shaman king, well i hope cuz i only have like mebbe 10 episodes left... and it seems to be nearing the end cuz everyone's pulling the big guns.... hopefully it's the end or else i'll have to go search for it (& it was hard! i couldnt find it anywhere! thanks roberta! hehehe) yeah it was in the 1 obvious place i didnt think to look.. heheh ... and ive finally decided to go buy that watch.... well since the air play isnt here yet & might be a dissapointment, no point in holding back my spending (even though i should... oy i guess i'll starve thru august again like i did december.. :S lol.. not funny but it is.. :S)

Blink

So blink decided to break up... cuz they're "enjoying the fruits of their labor with their loved ones" which means that they're rich now so dont give a flying fuck about the fans or making music... complete and total sellouts.... i would rant, but i already did and well everyone knew this would happen anyways...... Meh...

Japanese Buffet Frenzy

2005-04-04T09:11:00.000-04:00

Yorkdale

Woo... weekend update! Spent sat afternoon @ yorkdale, well for that 2 hours max? mebbe? cuz had to get $$ from the guy who smashed my mom's car... i should have made him pay more, he only paid for half the damages and well thats kinda not enuf considering it was his fault but meh... i didnt want to drag this on any longer than it should... i saw a couple of things i wanted to buy, but didnt end up buying much, only a T shirt and a polo shirt... (i can never figure out what they're called.. lol)ive decided that i will go and buy that watch.... :S oh.. i did see a bag i wanted to buy for skool.. but... oy.. im gonna go broke again..

Jap Food

anyways, onto a more stuff.... had jap dinner wit wendy & her sister/friend & alex... wow... i think we pissed off the ppl there cuz we ordered so much, but really, it wasnt a lot of food considering it was 5 ppl... i think to make sure they still make a huge chunk of profit from us, they decided to skip like half the stuff we ordered.... we were kinda loud and obnoxious... kinda like teenagers.. (except ppl keep telling me that im not... BUT I AM!!! lol... i wont be an adult until i turn 25 when my car insurance goes down! so THERE! hahah)

Sin City

Then we went to watch Sin City.... and might i say Worst movie ever.... :S i didnt mind the blood at all, cuz it wasnt really blood, the whole movie was black & white and the splashes of blood was like neon paint... but well i guess thats wat you expect from quintin tarentino... god i HATE him so much... i dont know why ppl think he's a genius.. :S anyways yeah, i wanted to sleep so bad during that movie it wasnt even funny, and i never wanna sleep during movies, especially when i havent seen one in like 2 months! and i kept on looking @ wendy & she kept on like dozing off.. hahaha... & then cindy didnt get how the whole movie tied in togehter... but yeah sucked ass... :S would have been better off watching miss congeniality 2! lol... meh... it was really long though. like 2 hours +... well i guess it was suppose to merge like 3 comic books into 1 movie....

DTS

Daylight savings time screwed me up! so bad! i got home around 12 30 on sat after the movie and i noticed that my labtop's clock was faster than the rest of my clocks by an hour.. so i was like... aww frick... choose to "ignore" the new time i proceeded to like play on my comp till the cows came home... oh lets say around 4? i couldnt remember if it was 4 old time or 4 new time... that meant that i didnt wake up on sunday till like uh 1 30 i think new time..? so i spent the day watching anime on my bed and having like 1 meal at like 3.. :S then for some reason i decided to nap at like 10ish and i woke up at 3 in the morning and have been since then... :S i'll prolly collapse as soon as i get home tonite and repeat that vicious cycle again.. damnit!....

Reasons Why GC Rocks....

2005-04-03T03:33:00.000-04:00

Okay! so since this is my blog, im gonna post whatever the hell i want about GC... hehehehe.. so it all started when i was having dinner wit wendy when out of the blue she said that GC sucked cuz they were manufactured together by the record company...
Thats totally UNTRUE!!! outraged!! lol... so anyways, most ppl hate them cuz they dont like their music, or say that they're not PUNK... but... nobody is anything these days anyways... even mohawks, which is like the main icon for being punk is said that its so mainstream that its not punk anymore.. (wth??) benji does have a mohawk anyways... so onward wit my story about hwo they form from what i know... the twin's father ran away like a wuss... so the twins turned to music to let out their anger and frustration... (u can tell.. they had some pretty sad songs about their dad leaving) anyways they started when they were 16, practiced everyday after skool, hooked up with paul who knew how to play the drums.... then they moved to maryland and worked shitty jobs to make ends meet while they performed at like various places... they were like starved and shelterless for quite a while.... they meet billy later on and benji & joel's mom gave them her crappy car to go on the road wit their music.... and then afterwards sony signed them.... (yeah its kinda vague but i wasnt obsessive enuf to dig out every single detail... nor could i remember.. lol)

Anyways, here's why i love them so much... #1 their music is really really good... like, its different than reg punk where all the songs sound the same and the lead singers all sound the same... (ie Mest, All American Rejects, New Found Glory... dont get me wrong i like them, especially AAR, but i think their music sounds the same if you didnt know their songs) #2 i really like their lyrics, it touched me and a couple of songs especially i could relate too... #3 they worked so hard... like i dont have a single doubt in my mind that they did starve a lot and were dirt poor and had nowhere to live... i mean they came from a family of 4 kids and only had their mom to raise them.... so regardless of whether ppl like their music or not, u gotta give respect to the fact that they worked hard for their dream and had a really rough ride along the way....

Yeah, anyways i could go on but wanted to keep it short and simple... heheh...

Sasuke the Ass

2005-04-01T10:02:00.000-05:00

Naruto

naruto was gravely dissapointing..... well the battle with kimimaro was amazing.... cant expect any less from Sabaku no Gaara.... i really hate his new uniform though :( well i guess cuz he went from genin to chuunin? mebbe? but the ending of that battle was kind of forced... when your immobolized (lets say) and you try to stab someone... even though you die your body still has momentum doesnt it? so if you died half way thru attacking, you'd still attack anyways, just mebbe with less force...? i guess he technically couldnt move cuz he was using the bones to move so when he died, he could no longer shift the bones?? i dunno.. meh.. and then the naruto vs sasuke fight... was.. just... pathetic... you see sasuke lifting naruto up in the air by holding onto his shirt... naruto sounds like as if he's being choked to death... and he's like dangling his legs... uh... if someone was lifing me up, i'd hit their arms or kick them....? doesnt matter how "hard/strong" sasuke was.. he was just holding the shirt..... :S meh... but yeah... SOOOOO much time was wasted on "staring" at each other, the sky... stupid bird over the sun... !??! wth...! well... even though ive read the manga already, i dont remember exactly what happens in the battle, so im gonna say that the naruto that's being tied up is a kage bunshin... but holy shit, sasuke looks like an ASS.... an ASS i say..... he use to be like cool/cute looking, but now that he's turned evil, they made his face even longer... and just looks like an ASS!.. .hahaha

Work

Oy... im bored today @ work... finished that huge test plan and the pile of work i was suppose to do... it always turns out like that though... i think i have a lot of work and stress.. and then it turns out that it wasnt much at all.. just all time consuming.... and since its friday, half the ppl arent here anyways cuz its prolly their flex day... man, i wish i could flex.... it would be a lot more fun.. but i'd spend the day EQing lol... despite the super weather we're having - the winds... but its suppose to snow/rain tonite... i hope it rains.. cuz i gotta go see the doctors tmr 1st thing and then stopping over @ ikea to buy a spoka...! hehehe...

Random Thoughts

Oy... as i wait for regression to finish... hehe... hopefully i can go early today! seems possible cuz im almost done like everything, mebbe another hour and half.. yay!
cant believe its so sunny outside! i mean if i can see brightness from in here (our windows are all tinted, normal day looks like greyish cloudy skies) then it must be really bright... well i wonder if its still windy... mebbe its the calm before the storm tonite! hehe.... well rain anyways... Iulia went out wit the developers for lunch so i was all alone... Oh my god... im listening to the most boring song ever!... its called walk by? or walk something by something corporate.. :S they are soooo emo/slow.... it drives me insane.. lol.. sorry kenny! hehe... on a better note, i really like the used & billy talent now.. they really do sound alike (the lead singers) well i guess the used's voice is more tolerable... i cant stand the main singer from billy talent.. and im too lazy to look up his name.. even though i have nothing to do.. hehe... meh! and ive also accepted the fact that i like greenday... but im still "indifferent" about billy joe... hehe... there's this weird funk somewhere.. and im scared that its me! well i had a slice of italian style (like actual italian style) pizza that had an overload of spices/herbs.. and a minestone soup that had an abundant amount of herbs too... ;S bleh... mebbe im just imagining it... it prolly is me.. HAHAHAHAH... oy!.

Super Busy Day

2005-03-31T19:55:00.000-05:00

Work & more Work

Soooooo busy today... didnt have time to rest... ppl just kept on handing me stuff, and mostly stuff that i had to use the testing software to do, but i could only do one thing with it at a time, and the thing that took the longest, regression (which involves clicking and then waiting for the damn thing to run) was top priority... :S i had 2 comps and it still wasnt enuf... i wish i had a 3rd... but then i'd end up running regression with it too :S and then comes this stupid test plan business where the person just assumes you know everything and throws in stuff to do in the middle of nowhere.... i couldnt understand a damn thing it wrote and i got so lost & frustrated, especially since i had to finish testing it by tmr and there's like 42 fricking pages... i spent 2 hours in like 12... :S but thats how the "testing" dept is.... from what i see, ppl dont do much in the beginning and then when crunch time comes (like due dates for our updates and releases...) ppl scramble and do mad hours of OT... i should be OTing too cuz i have so much stuff to do, but i opted to go home, relax & play everquest for like 6 hours.. :S oy!!!! stupid me.. well it wouldnt have made much a diff anyways cuz of stupid easter, i wouldnt have made any OT time, i would have just made up for getting that day off...

No concerts and no Sum 41 makes me a cranky

And im kinda bummed out... actually REALLY REALLY REALLY bummed that i dont have a chance to see sum 41.... kenny has to go see jimmy eat world and roberta's busy for exams.... :S sigh.... ive never seen them live before... and well despite the fact that deryck always seems to be high when he's performing live... i still wanna go.. :( if GC ever comes (sigh i doubt it... canada SUCKS ASS for concerts/music wise.... i wish i was in the states, warp tour baby!!!) anyways yeah if GC ever comes, i dont care if no one goes (i dont think anyone will... roberta hates them.. well dislikes them.. and no one else i know is a GC fan) i'll still go.. i dont care.. its GC baby!!!! bleh... anyways more updates as my char rests in EQ... hahaha

Kenny's Blog

Oh yeah, kenny if you read this... there's something wrong with either your blog or my comp... :S everytime i tried to comment, i type in my msg and then click post and it says something about a template being missing and it doesnt do anything :S ive tried so many times!! anyways, F chord is worst than C chord....!!!!!! my pinky is like crippled when it comes to the guitar.. :S heheheh

Eatting Early

so full.. wow lately, ive been having such a healthy eating habit, i hav dinner at like 5... :S its crazy!.... i wanna watch naruto but wanna play EQ... :S damnit! i gotta stop @ 11 to watch naruto before i sleep hehe... bleach was okay.... its taking sooooooooooo long just to go in and attack, seems like they're dragging it on and on :S

Everquesting

2005-03-30T14:50:00.000-05:00

Problems @ Work

Woo, its been a while since i updated.. well 3 days is a lot for me okay! heheh.... not much has happened, well been really really busy with work... trying to fix the "everything is failing" problem... its finally looking up now but gonna be in a rush since we need to have our quarterly release by next weekish and well since everything went down the chute, we have to interactively test everything .... well i dont have much to do cuz im a coop but gotta rush to get all my testing done first so we can stablize...

Everquesting

I did sign up for everquest though...ive been wanting to try it out for a while now ever since HS? lol.... but it was too expensive (it still is~ 13 american! thats like almost 20 bucks here per month!) but there's a nice 7 day trial going on so im gonna do that... and you know what that means.... thats right, 7 days of non stop gaming @ home... hahaha.. and we wonder why im going blind.... hahaha... :S sigh...

Longass Bus Ride

so tired right now.... mentally exhausted... and i have to bus home... :S honestly, its saving me a tone of money which is good cuz taxes have took of a huge portion.... already... but like taking an hour and quarter to get home at the end of the day just isnt fun... :S well if the ttc starts to strike, it'll be worst cuz more cars on the street and then i'll be forced to be stuck in traffic for an even longer time... :S

well its 3 already, hopefully i dont have to stay in and do absolutely everything today... cuz i wanna go home... so tired... :S

Weirdos on the Bus

2005-03-28T08:07:00.000-05:00

Weird ppl on the Bus

Woo.. another day @ work... i saw the weirdest guy on the subway this morning, he was chinese and he got on at north york center... and then he was busy putting on his headfones? i guess? but it looked liked those ear thermometers... and he was trying so hard to stick it in... :S when we got to finch... everyone on the subway got off cuz it was the last stop... but he stayed..and just sat there.... ! another "TTC" related incident.. this guy who got on the bus @ my stop pulled out his cell phone and started playing games i guess? or searching thru ringtones.. it was sooo loud, i head both headfones on and i still heard him... :S and he's like middle aged blue collar worker type.. everyone on the bus was kinda staring @ him..... i meet the strangest ppl on the bus... really i do :S

Easter Weekend Update

2005-03-27T20:47:00.000-05:00

Day @ Pmall

Wow... long weekend! well technically short weekend, cuz i have to work tmr :( but its okay.... nothing to do @ home anyways.... i finally washed like the mountain of clothes... well almost... the other stuff i can wear again prolly cuz ive only worn it like once or mebbe for a short time... so i still have a mound... but at least its not a mountain... hahahahaha.... didnt do much this weekend... caught up with roberta & steph @ pmall... we walked for like 5 hours! (well i got there since 12, so it was 6 for me:S) never knew i could spend so much time at a place... i saw this really really amazing guess watch with a leather band that i wanted... and i dont think it looks bad on me, but its 125!!!! so expensive... well i was hoping i could haggle it down to at least 100... but i dunno.. :S damnit.. i know i'll eventually give in an buy it, especially since im getting paid next week.. hehe... but hopefully i can find something just as nice thats a bit cheaper..... i bought like 2 games... been playing one all weekend... well the game says ive been playing for like 3 hours only? but im pretty sure its been more than that.. lol... well it was only for 2 days so mebbe..? hrm.. i doubt it.. heheheh other than that, nothing much happened... so bored...!

Working Fast is a Sin

2005-03-24T08:38:00.000-05:00

Police Blockade

Wow... so i was late today for like a whole half hour... :S cuz of some stupidness... i bet we'll hear about it in the news today.. just remember, u heard it here 1st! hahaha i sound like one of those news anchors.. anyways apparently the sheppard subway had this bigass police "investigation" which stopped all trains from moving along the sheppard line.... so i had to bus from donmills to sheppard/yonge instead... great way to start off a day eh?? lol.. i passed out @ 10 lastnite again... i dont know why im getting so tired and sleepy.... but at least im awake for now... which is good.... boring stuff to do @ work again...

Working Fast

Okay so i just finished testing one of the site that i had to do and the chinese guy who assigned it to me (he sits across from me) was "surprised" that i was finished so fast... but it was more like a "disbelief" than anything... so he started questioning me whether i made sure EVERY SINGLE word that was changed was correct... i was thinking wtf.. the paper he gave me showed me what was new as in links and stuff, it didnt show jack shit about the actual words changing... how the hell am i suppose to check every single word?? so then this other guy who works under him was like oh yeah he (as in me) comes in earlier than the rest of us (well, he didnt know that i was late today but the guy who was giving me the 3rd degree did) so its natural for him to finish now and then the guy who defended me was telling the chinese guy how there's like almost 200 pages of wording changes... so how im not responsible for that... stupidness! i mean how long does it take to surf thru a site??? 45 mins is long enuf IMO... i made sure everything worked... and i dont think its my responsibility to check every single word... // pissed now // and he should know, he sits across from me, he knows how fast i finish my work anyways... :@ lol.. i had to make a couple of changes.. :S didnt want to upset anyone with "names" & shit.. hehe

Hot People(or lack of)

anyways, since i am again without anything to do.. i just wanna make a quick comment on how this places has like a relatively low amount of "hot" ppl... lol.. i dont care if its superficial or whatnot, its just an observation... everyone's like married first of all, well not all but like 90% of them... and they are reaching their late 30's (thats prolly the youngest) to mebbe around late 40's??? well with the exceptions of a couple of ppl, everyone's just generally old, and they've worked here for like the longest time... ive seen their ID cards, it was back in the 90's and 80's! thats crazy! but it does show that ppl are loyal to this place, which prolly means its good to work here (well from what ive found out, it is pretty good to work here, the benefits are amazing! hehe and the environment is so laid back and care free...except for when everything decides to fail! heheheh) so well i guess there's like 2 hot women on my floor.. a blonde and brunette.. both married i think... the blonde looks late 20's mebbe 30's and the brunette looks a lil bit older, mebbe early 30's... but other than that.. its kinda bad.. lol... and the only guy who's hot is most likely the youngest guy here.. (lol full time) and he's 26... i think he hates me though.. lol.. because i went against his decision on some of the stuff... meh... and most of the ppl here are caucasian... except for like my side, which has like 4 chinese i guess testing/developing ppl? they all work on the same team though.. lol... woah so my lil blurb turned into like a huge thing... eek better stop and save room for later.. hehehehe

Stupid ppl reversing on mainroads

wow... so im OTing today and the site's failing... so i have to wait until its properly deployed, but woah i was so scared for a sec cuz my mom called me earlier and told me she got into a car accident, and even though it was minor.. i wanted to be there, but since i had no car.. ~_~" i figured that by the time i got there, it would have been over already... wow.. so apparently this car reversed to let the truck pass while my mom was turning right behind him.. so he hit my mom on the side door.. ~_~"... there was a witness and left a fone number for my mom, but the asshole "convinently" crossed it out thinking it was his own info... yeah right fuckin' bastard... i'd punch him if was there... but he didnt want to call the cops cuz he didnt want to file an insurance claim and since it was gonna raise his insurance, so he offered to pay for our damages and make us pay for his which is not gonna be as much as ours... but since he was being an ass and my mom doesnt know much english, i told her to call the cops, we needed to anyways... but holy shit the cops are assholes.. they wont try to find a translator for us and said that my mom's english was fine (which is not true, cuz what she's trying to express she says in a diff way and it means something else) so i ended up calling a family friend over to help... was so worried... oy... well... we'll see how it goes... hopefully it wont be too bad...

Lifestyles of the Rich & Famous

oy! finally home! i started recording when i play my guitar... its sounding not too bad, i can play a lil bit faster now, at 85% of original speed, but i have trouble shifting chords across strings... well mostly moving higher in the key... :S but meh its sound a lot better... and ive been trying to figure out the bridge part, but its not working much... oh well practice practice practice! so happy! my long weekend finally started!!! i dont think i get paid tmr though :( which sucks cuz i racked in a couple hours of overtime this week... ~~~ oh well... hopefully i'll OT next week too... teheheheh yay! i get paid next week.. wow, time is flying by! its almost time for the dreaded skool... ~~~ :/

Tie & Short Sleeved Shirt = Dressed Up?

2005-03-23T11:45:00.000-05:00

Dress UP?

Wow.. so today i decided to dress differently, well not really, same khakis pants but i wore a short sleeved white shirt with a tie... (i thought it looked nice and the way im wearing it is really really casual... more punk really lol) but apparently everyone thinks im really really dressed up... and they've been making jokes about it all day.. lol... doesnt bother me much, i just dont see why its "dressing up" cuz honestly, i think its dressing down.. lol... meh... my hair is starting to grow back.. especially the front, so i can do my usual mohawkish ... (im pretty sure there's a name for it, i just dunno heheh) so thats working out for me... can i always knew that this week was good friday, but it never occured to me that i could get the day off...! which im so looking forward to!!! heheh... roberta & steph wants to go anime stuff shopping... and im fine with that, but i will definetly definetly play my guitar... (drools) i cant wait till i become good... in another decade or so.. HAHAHAHA... oy.. today has been relatively going by fast, i have a couple of things to do today, and quite possibly have to OT but meh, its extra $$ so im not complaining... hehe

Sick but not really?

Oy... so its 3... technically i have 45 mins left if they build still isnt ready... but im bored out of my mind.... ive spent the hour and bit surfing around ppl's blogs and adding in comments... but most of all im just tired... i fell asleep @ 10 lastnite... with the light on... how can i be so tired all the time now? considering how i sleep a LOT more than i did back when i was in skool... and even @ work im tired too... i think i have mono... but i havent kissed anyone lately... hrm.. but i dont think mono makes u sleepy, i know its suppose to make you tired.. thats all but is tired and sleepy the same thing?? i dunno... oh well i have to go see the doc anyways this weekend... mebbe im fighting off a bug... can i fight off a bug for like months at a time? seems like im not 100% fully healthy, yet im not to the point where im considered sick.. :S weird... anyways i suppose i can blame the staring @ the monitor for hours at a time.. but then again i can surf the net for hours at a time or play games on my comp for hours at a time and its never made me tired before... well... no good will come of this i guarantee it... hehe

My Blogary?

and after reading other ppl's blogs, ive come to realize how "different" mine is... hahaa.. ive basically turned the blog into a diary... rather than a "blog" everyone has mebbe like 2-3 paragraphs max about whatever's going on and here i am writing like a frickin' essay.... except for roberta, who when she has something to say, will write a lot too.. but... i dont think she writes as much as i do...lol... meh... most ppl dont read what i write anyways so i dont care... that is to say "no one" reads what i write... its so sad... everyone hates me..! :'( lol... meh whatever.

Tragic Flaw

Noooo..... so im home playing on my guitar and i find out 1 tragic flaw.... i cant play standing up... my arm is bent the wrong way (and i knew this would happen, which was why i already took precaution against it and rested my guitar on my left leg like the forums said to help me get use to playing standing up) but.... it failed.... :S and i realize that when im not staring @ the guitar the right way... i cant count properly .... lol... i miscounted all the frets... damnit!! :S

Quizzes Galore

2005-03-22T10:51:00.001-05:00

Element

Your element is Wind. You are the guy/girl that is
unpredictable. No one knows what you're going
to do next and what you're in the mood for.
Studying is not your thing and you would rather
go to a party than stay home. Life is just for
fun and you need to be free to live according
to you. You waste no time on lies, if you feel
or think one thing you say it even if it hurts.
Of course, people may be quite upset but that
doesn't really bother you. Its not that you
don't care, because you do, but in these
situations it's a waste of time. You live up in
the clouds and are quite a dreamer about life.
People often consider you beautiful, but harsh
and they would think twice before getting to
know you. But once they do, they'll learn that
you are always willing to take yourself and
your friends on adventures. Never will it be a
boring time with you and your friends
appreciate that. You are not often seen sad,
but you have your times. If someone has been
mean to you, you can quite easily trash-talk
them for betraying you. Nevertheless, you are
most of the time a good spirit who just want to
have some fun. Rate and message!

What is your element? [with pics + 7 outcomes + detailed answeres!]
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Teenager

You are the bad boy / girl of your school. You
have little faith in yourself and usually find
escape in some sort of addicting substance or
yourself. You would rather torture others
above anything else. You regularly skip
school and when you go, always tend to ditch a
certain class. Some classmates can fear you
while others pity you...and your family. (No
offense) Your cruel behavior and abject
personality tends to single you out from the
crowd...and you prefer life this way at times.
However, lonliness can rear its ugly head and
force you seek a way to silence it. But be
warned, your path is dangerous... but only a
strong person can walk this road.

Some
ideal occupations for you can be a Police
officer, Celebrity (who doesn't love the
badasses?), Wrestler, Polotician, or some sort
of leader. Either way, your destined to be
known by many.

What type of teenager are you?
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Some of this is true... not really sure though.. lol.. funny how it says i'll be known by many but didnt say in a good way or a bad way.. lol.... im prolly thinking of the latter

You're the sad smile,the one that regrets nearly
everything and is constantly wondering about
what could have been.You're not happy with your
situation and usually blame yourself because of
the bad things that have happened.Cheer up.

What Kind of Smile are You?
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This is kinda true... hrm.. :S..

Which Naruto Character are You?
quiz by orangeday.net

Woo! naruto.. hehe... loud and abnoxious.. thats me! hahaha...

discover what candy you are @ quiz me

Pop punk... I'm not really that fond of you, but
you can churn out some good stuff... Old punk
doesn't really like you but you couldn't care
less...besides it's all about having fun isn't
it?

What genre of rock are you?
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This is cool too... i was looking @ roberta and she got numetal/linkin park.. lol.. which is really cool... but yeah ive moved away from LP and more into Punk stuff... go GC go! hehehe..

You are a moon shadow. With the moon as your source
you are a being of great mystery. Constantly
drifting, you descend into darkness to conceal
your brokenness. You have come to believe that
you are the only one you can rely upon for
constancy and safety that you need. But those
who know how to see you find enchanting beauty
in your wistfulness and fragility. It is to
them that you should flee, for their arms are
an open haven where your true light can finally
thrive..(please rate my quiz cuz it took me for
freaking ever to create)

What Kind of Shadow Are You? (with gorgeous pics)
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I dunno, i would say its sort of accurate, but a lot of ppl just dont see me that way...

Wine

?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ??
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In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)

What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
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GREEN

??Which colour of Death is yours??
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Work is Failing

2005-03-22T09:35:00.000-05:00

Stupid Skool did something Right

Woo! great way to start off! i just checked my telaris acct, i got all my $$ back! woo! will pay for half my coloring course now.. ROFL... heheh... i was reading roberta's blog again (not that i didnt have anything to do, cuz i have tones, everything decided to fail today but i still have to wait for the the things to run) and i took the naruto quiz.. woo! wow so i was reading her post about our ops assignment last term.. and WOAH roberta's like full of anger..>! ive never heard her swear so much in my life! it was like every breath she took... lol... oy... so much work to do... everything's failing ... why is it being stupid!?!?!? :S damnit!

My Quizzies

so ive decided that since i am bored (even with stuff to do) i will take quizzes and post the results here... lol... hrm mebbe i should post it somewhere else in a seperate blog.. yeah that would make sense!

Fingering Guitar

wow... work was interesting today.. well not really, just cuz everythings failing... hehe... nevertheless it kept me busy till 1ish... which was good... :) was suppose to OT today and test a new build for a site but since it wasnt ready today before 3, i got to go.... hehe... had a GREAT short practice today (all my practices are short.. i should really read the book that i bought on guitars.. hehe) i make a MAJOR breakthrough... yay me! hehehe.. i can play most of Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous by GC now.. (i could strum before but it wasnt in the same rhythm as the song) and for some reason today i decided to strum differently and it worked! i was so excited! hehe.. but thats how ive been learning guitar... like out of the blue i'll get an idea on how to play certain parts and it'll work... hehe... but im still having trouble with the bridge and the parts at the end... and i blame the tabber, he throws things all over the place, not really logical :S oh well i suppose i'll learn eventually... hehee... and then i went on to play 88 from Sum 41, (i wanted to play the hell song even more but its in C#) and i think i need a live demonstration cuz im not sure exactly where to place my fingers properly... well it sounds okay but im guessing cuz my fingers are in the wrong position its hard for me to move it around (which is necessary cuz the song is relatively fast :S) oh well i suppose practice and practice will help... i hope next sem whoevers @ steph's house wont be upset that i'll be playing... i try to keep it relatively quiet, but its hard to hear your own guitar... and i hope that steph/fion/roberta & them wont mind me playing all the time... well its prolly only gonna be an hour to an hour and half a day... hehe and hopefully i'll motivate roberta enuf to play with me... hehehe

Infectionous Spices?

anyways, time to cook.... im so hungry.... i think im developing a throat infection... its been hurting for a while now at least like a week or two (i just keep on drinking more water hoping it'll go away) but im guessing the satay and spices arent helping it... mebbe a doctor this weekend is in order... bleh i hate my family doctor... he sucks ass... and well its been god knows how many years now so its hard to change, especially since he's my optometrist as well... which i blame partly for my bad eye sight.. he's kinda bad @ diagonsising stuff.. :S eek... oh well... cooking time....

peace.

Stupid School Did Something Right

2005-03-21T09:21:00.000-05:00

Scary day!

March 21! scary day! my petition for my stupid winter course is being reviewed today.... hopefully i can get a full refund back and not fail the course..... !!! sigh.... so depressing today... most likely from the lack of sleep during the weekend and cuz i had milk tea for lunch yesterday, couldnt sleep till late lastnite... had really bad dream about my grandma...it was like re-living the past but things happened differently... the ending was the same though... :S so woke up feeling kinda sad & depressed... at work now just finished what i was suppose to do on friday... i still wasnt sure what to do but i attempted to do something.. which was good.. lack of sleep making me look like a zombie, cant respond properly... and my hair is kinda messed up.... stupid lady & her messed up cutting.. im gonna try and find a pair of those spiffy zig-zag scissors my barber use to cut with and try and fix it... but i have no idea where to get a pair.. :S

Refund !!

Woo! great news! they decided to backdate it to jan 1, 2005 so i wont get a fail and i get all of my $$ back! woo! hehehe.... now i can afford the "color" course... ahahahha i still cant believe im dumbass enuf to waste like a thousand dollars on a coloring course... but hey i need some sort of bird course to help me !! hehehe.. and cuz its DE, i can study it next sem too! hehehe

Ohh, i was bored @ work so i was checking out random blogs and found this on roberta's so i decided to take it! hehehe... (the quizzes moved to a new blog post.. hehe since ive decided to take a while butt-load of them!)

Bad Hair Day

2005-03-20T15:12:00.001-05:00

Early Day Off

Woo! Weekend update! So I went into loo this weekend… it was great! I got off work early cuz I didnt have anything to do (which was kinda a lie, I did, and I should have finished it, but it was too lazy and I didnt know I was gonna get let off work early, or else I would have actually finished it, now I’ll have to go early mon and try to finish it then.. heheheh, I doubt I’ll finish it in time though, I’ll say that I didn’t know how to do it which was sort of true.. hehe) but yeah so I went in and wow it took forever to get in… stupid traffic while we were leaving TO and then more traffic as we were coming in…. :S

Gaming With Drew

Caught up with my roomies when I got home, Im so glad that they werent upset wit me or anything, in fact, I think we got along pretty well..so my weekend of fun consists of hours and HOURS of video gaming….. I lugged over my ps2 cuz I didn’t feel like going out to a bar and it was the best thing that I did…. I bought a multiplayer RPG game last weekend and I brought that over and drew came over @ like 8ish (after we had a swiss chalet dinner.. mmmm.. was sooo good! I never have it in TO cuz there’s always better food.. heheh) so we started playing and by the time we realized we should go for food, it was already like 3 in the morning… jackie was like… whats wrong wit you two? How can you play a game for like 7 hours straight??? (yeah we played 7 hours straight.. lol) but hell it was fun… well when we got back drew had to call kim and she was kinda drunk off her ass so he had to go home and take care of it. There went my goal to play all day till the wee hours of morning (lol, yes I had really thought about it and we would have done it if kim wasn’t sick) but it was just as well, so I slept @ 4.

Chapters & The Freak Who Cut My Hair

Yesterday I got up at around 11ish well no, I woke up watch sat morning cartoons (heheh) and then “tried” to sleep cuz I was hell tired and ended up waking @ like 2ish.. so I walked over to chapters to grab my guitar book (which was completely stupid, cuz they ran out of rock guitar for dummies but the site said they had 2 copies like on wed or thrus..) and the ONLY guitar for dummies book was nowhere to be found and the guy said it could be anywhere within the store…. So I ended up getting a “the everything” rock & blues guitar book instead… hopefully it helps… it was so expensive…. 30 bucks! Yeah I blew off so much $$ this weekend, approximately 100, and half of it was eating, I had like 10 dollar meals and they werent even elaborate. ~_~ ohh yeah so I got home at around like 3:30ish and thought id wash my hair (cuz I had gelled it) and then go a haircut at the place right beside my house… well I was moaping around for like half an hour waiting for my hair to dry a bit first and was watching tv and by the time I got here (4 on the dot exactly) the lady said she was closed and couldn’t even fit me in…. I was like… wow im such an idiot and then jackie suggested I go to like all these places so I picked the nearest one across the street… BIG FUCKIN’ MISTAKE…. they were indian and im not being racist, but that stupid lady can not CUT HAIR FOR HER LIFE…. She started asking me HOW my previous hairdresser cut my hair.. whether it was done with a razor, clippers or scissors…. (WTF, if I knew I WOULD CUT MY OWN FRICKIN’ HAIR!!!!) and then she proceeds to litterally scrape off hair on the back of my head with a razor, DESPITE the fact that I said I wanted to keep my hair long @ the back and short in the front so I can spike it up…. HOW HARD IS IT TO UNDERSTAND THAT!?!?.. so afterwards she went and took scissors and randomly cut off hair on my head… mostly on my front WHICH ENDED WITH LESS THAN 1 INCH OF HAIR AT THE VERY FRONT OF MY HEAD and then she was like oh done.. I was like uh… (she didn’t touch the back or my ears/sideburns…. WTH?) so she cut off a lil bit more at the back WHICH WAS A HUGE MISTAKE, cuz instead of going vertically with the hair, she CUT AGAINST IT HORIZONTALLY, like a clean straight cut…. WTF who the hell CUTS HAIR LIKE THAT!?!??!?!?… and it costed me 14 fuckin’ dollars when I usually get my hair cuts for 7….. so damn pissed off… my hair looks like SHIT now cuz when I try to spike it up, you can just see like all the strands of hair being like evenly cut in a straight line and I have no hair at the front….. :’( sooooo SAD I was like furious… but I couldn’t really say anything now could i…??? Frickin’ hell…. Well I susppose I could but she would have messed it up even more.. sigh…. after the fiasco, drew had “just” woken up lol and said he was gonna eat and hen come over… yeah… he said 20 mins but it took him like 2 hours and a bit… :S lol… well we started playing our game again and then steph called cuz I was suppose to have dinner with her so we grabbed her swiss chalet (she really wanted it but since I bussed in and didn’t have a car she didn’t wanted to walk all the way to my house cuz it was far) so I ended up buying take out and walking over to her place… it was fun catching up hehehe…. I missed not having anyone insult me.. hehehhe in a fun way of course, cuz I would never take it seriously anyways…hahah yeah so we left at like a bit passed 10 and ended up playing video games again @ my house…. lol… this time we didn’t stop till like 5 cuz I had to sleep and wake up early today to catch the bus home… LoL…. It was great!!!! Hehehe its nice having someone who shares the same interests as you! And basically we survived the two nites in my room on like water only, we must have like at least 15 bottles of water… :S (cleared my water stash ) heheh…

Bus Ride Home

So now im on the bus ride home to TO…. I should be sleeping cuz I woke up especially early today and I only got like mebbe 4 hours of sleep…. lol… but well I feel like I should use this time wisely and write a blog & catch up on my anime! I have SOOOO MUCH!!!! Its gonna be fun… hehe… oh, that and cuz my ipod is almost dead, I forgot to charge it while I was @ home… so stupid of me, so im trying to save it up for the subway ride home.. hehe I hope it’ll last… cuz ive been using it a lot in the past 3 days…. well mostly @ work and then on the way over… which prolly should have been almost 12 hours? (I think I have 12 hours on my ipod.. I dunno.. heheh) anyways gotta do sum stuff wit my mom when I get back, which was why I left so early and hopefully my cranky side wont come out… hehehehe…

PS… roberta LAUGHED @ me when I told her on msn about my hair… she swears its cuz she was talking to her group members and didn’t know what to type but I HIGHLY doubt that… lol…. its just like her to laugh @ me, but its okay… hehehe… I don’t mind… im used to being laughed @ hahaha… OOOHHH… I think I freaked out some ppl with my black nail polish in one hand…. lol… most definetly drew…. And the thing was I think he was facsinated wit it (cuz I was telling him that I was trying to look more punk… hehe instead of more fob) and he just kept on like mentioning it to EVERYONE we saw… lol… infront of jackie he was like “are you gonna wear black lipstick to match your nail polish” I was like.. lol.. im not trying to look goth… and then he couldn’t tell the diff between punk & goth.. and then when I was over @ steph’s he questioned her about my “dress style” lol…. which meant fingernails… well I think steph just wanted to know why and I think she was kinda shocked too but when shewta saw it she was like uh yeah it looks really weird with it being on one hand…. but I didnt want to do it on 2 so meh!… anyways time to go….. !

Into the Loo

2005-03-18T08:33:00.000-05:00

Stupid Chinese People

Was too caught up doing stuff lastnite to post... i dont even remember where i left off... but ohh yeah on the way back, i caught another smelly guy on the bus beside me... :S it was so bad... well i ended up giving my spot to an old man so it worked out okay... and there were this chinese lady and his im guessing 10- 13/14 year old son who didnt know that you had to get a transfer from the station and not the bus driver if your taking a bus form the station so the driver wouldnt give them a transfer and they were "confused" as to why so this other chinese lady told them... but it was funny cuz they conversed in english and then afterwards, the mom kept on "nagging" about it to her son something about paying twice and how it was his fault or something... (as usual i was listening to super loud music but i tried to eaves drop for like a couple mins on what they were talking about cuz all i saw her her mouth move non stop from start till end ~_~)

Bittorrent Pains

Hrmm... lets see... nothing else happened much lastnite... did the usual.... anime/guitar eat/sleep.. lol... im turning into a pig :S ohhh stupid BT site!!! im dling this series and apparently i forgot that 2 of the episodes wasnt finished so i had to re-dl it.... and its stuck at 99% for the past 2 days... while other ppl are just mooching off me.... WTH! and its like in the middle so i cant skip it over... frickin' hell.. annoying the hell outta me... if ppl can dl off me, then i should be able to dl off other ppl! its only 1% !!... :S im starting to realize how unrealiable BT is... if no seeders/no one's dl like all these old series that i wanna rewatch again... i'll have no luck at all :S naruto on the other hand takes like 15 mins max and last nite's episode was soooooooo goooood! i think they redrew gaara's face well smoothed out his features and he looks areally good now... cant say the same for his "outfit" cuz it looks worst than the 1st one but holy shit, sooooo cool! he just comes and obliterates everything in his sight without breaking a sweat! (i bet he used up most of his chakra though... even though i know kimimaru's gonna die, i cant remember how the fight ends...) well kimi wasnt as well drawn, mostly cuz it showed him underneath the sand but it didnt show "how" he prevented the sand from like crushing him into smitherines... more like showed him in a hole... and was "oh? im not dead?...~_~"" lol... bleach was nice too.. it was really funny... hehe.. but im anxious to see uh... the guy who has sasuke's voice fight... (i forgot his name! lol) his arrows should be really really cool! hehehe

Frizzy Hair on the Bus

So i had a huge bag today (cuz im going inside loo after work) and its like frickin' heavy and the bus was pretty much empty so i put my bag on the seat beside me.... this stupid lady comes and smiles at me and makes me move my bag.. wth! there were like 5 other SEATS just as close to the front/door (i was in the 1st spot) in fact, there was one right across from me and it was pretty empty too (as in no fat ppl beside the spot, where technically your only getting half a seat instead of one) so i had to keep my bag on my legs for like half the ride... :S and she kept on "leaning" on me when the bus stopped.... ohh which reminds me of the guy with the hair on the bus yesterday (LOL, there are SO many interesting ppl on the bus... and most of them not in a good way! lol) well i guess he was caught up in his uh "country?" look so his hair was like half way down his back and it was all frizzy.. .and he kept on flinging it back like one of those girls on a shampoo commerical... except i was behind him... (he wouldnt move) so his hair kept on hitting my back... :S so grossed out... especially since it had a funky smell too (i have a really sensitive nose! lol)

And i really dont care that im blabbing on.... cuz i dont have nothing to do @ work... how am i ever gonna pass the day??? iulia's leaving for uh she told me a couple of times but i still forgot.. but somewhere warm and sunny! heheh.. so i'll be alone :S damnit! Ohh... received a couple of sms msgs lastnite (saw them this morning)... not sure what it was about... but made me kinda depressed... started thinking about bad stuff again.... ~~ sigh... i need a new life.

RPG crap

Woo its 2! well... almost time to go.... :S hopefully it will pass by super fast so i can get the hell outta work! the weather's looking great outside and at least i've solved my stupid laurier email problem so thats always good news... i think im gonna try a new mud... ive been itching all winter to try one out but couldnt find one that could match up to DR or DF... mebbe i should just play DFC instead... but well i guess its diff.. hehe... now the blurb will be about my mud life so... lol so if it doesnt interest you... sorry! hehehe... but ive found out the sad truth that physical fighters work soooooo much better than magic users... its simple, (less typing, which i wouldnt normally mind unless i get really bored, but i alias things anyways) and they are solo tanks... mages always have to rest (especially the cheapass ones like me who doesnt waste any gold on healing potions or mana potions and spend it all on gear & fluff.. hehe) so often and they lack the def to stand up one on one against harder mobs... and blessings... they are like the best thing ever! my monk (i think?) back in DFC with a blessing could fight these spiders which would most likely kill me in like 4-5 hits and made me level up super fast... if i was a mage... i would be fighting things prolly a couple of levels lower than what i would be in order to stay alive... how shitty is that!?!? hehe...

Smelly People on the Bus

2005-03-17T09:08:00.000-05:00

Smelly Bums

I made a mistake today and sat beside a smelly man-bum today... well im guessing he's not a bum cuz he an afford to take the bus going to work, but his BO was so bad.. and its not like its stentch from i guess uncleaniness? its more like his natural BO just reeks... i gagged a couple of times and had to stand up for the rest of the way on the bus... i dunno if he noticed or not (prolly cuz i just got up for no reason and just stood near the door and he got off before me.. lol) but i dont care... i didnt want to start projectile vomiting on a bus in the morning :S

Ohh i finally practiced guitar lastnite... making very little minor breakthroughs.... really excited but everytime i want to practice chords, i dont get how ppl can just play non-stop with chords... i need proper instruction so bad... lol..

Tattoos?

I think ive finally decided to go into loo this weekend... cuz i need to get my rent cheque back... but it started snowing again today... wtf... always the weekend i wanna go in it snows :S well i might not have a car anyways so i'll prolly bus it... is it worth the $25 to go in?? sure... need to get away from home... thinking more and more about moving away... cant stand my dad... one day im prolly just gonna snap... :S ooh and Iulia (co-op girl who sits like close to me, goes to waterloo) suggested that if i was gonna get a tattoo on my back, it should be on my lower back (after i told her i was gonna get it on my spine... cuz it wasnt gonna be symmetric if i just have one on like one side of my shoulder..) and i was thinking wow, that's not a bad idea... so anyways i think im finally gonna ask about a price quote now... woo! heheh a lil excited... but to me, this is like the no turning back point.. im still indifferent, especially since i know my spine will hurt like a MF if i do get it there... :S! so a lil scared.. but.. knowning me, it will prolly be a last minute decision :S

Hybernation

2005-03-16T08:27:00.000-05:00

10 Hour Nap

I slept for 10 hours lastnite!!!! mebbe cuz i was actually staring @ the comp all day yesterday but i passed out like rite after i ate.... which is sooooooo bad/unhealthy! but i couldnt help it! yeah that means i didnt get a chance to touch my guitar either... damnit!!! thats all im gonna do today when i get home! woo! hehehe....... but i gotta finish watching some stuff soon, cuz its anime DL day today! hehehe... oy! i have no space on my frickin' comp :'(

Nothing To Do

So my supervisor isnt gonna be around for the rest of the week.... this will prolly mean i will have nothing to do for the rest of the week... :S well it is wed today.. so hopefully... the rest of the week will go by quickly...... its so sad.... i dont think many ppl actually wanna do work instead of slacking off... hehe... anyways, got a couple more things to do this morning so mebbe i should take a crack at it... will prolly be back later to post about the rest of my day.

Mud Searching

I was right... today was uneventful... its like 3:10 and im counting down the mins as to when i can leave.... ive spent the good past 2 hours online secretly searching for good Muds to play... but all of them always the same format... really really crap/shitty builds... basically most of the stuff out there has the same build in the game, except they've changed the names of things.... which is completely stupid... i wanna play DR again but even that's not getting me addicted anymore :S i just spend most of my time there scripting cuz the chars are incredibly weak after so many years of the creators dampening the skills and stuff :( im already getting tired... hope i wont pass out at like 8 again today... :S still debating on whether to go into loo this weekend.. not sure yet though... it'll prolly be one of those spur of the moment things... ohh! i got paid today... such good news! heheh... i HATE tax.... im being taxed so much its not even funny..... ive come to realize that working OT can only bring me to like mebbe 50 - 100 dollars ontop of my regular salary.. which is like nothing compared to the hours that ive worked for it :S oy... so tired/bored.. i will definetly sneak out early today! heheheh

Half & Half

2005-03-15T18:25:00.000-05:00

New Mon, Ultra Glare

Today @ work was half good & half bad.... The amazing thing was that i finally got rid of that POS computer.... and got a new desktop... which is super small.. and ontop of that, it came with a 18 inch LCD flat monitor... well it didnt "come" with it like a set, but it was just part of the upgrade that everyone was getting @ work... and i was like the 1st one after those who already had 2 monitors upgraded to getting a 21 inch... i gotta say, its pretty nice having two monitors, cuz pratically my job is copying stuff and making tables on excel, so its nice to have monitors so i can see full screen on both windows for a change... but cuz one is new and one is old the colors look diff... so one's like super brite and the other's kinda dark and yellowish... the glare's pretty bad too cuz my desk is super long, but not deep enuf so i have like two honkin' monitors staring back @ my face... dont get me wrong i aint complaining though! hehee.. it was fun fiddling around with it!... the bad thing was prolly the most tedious and monotonous job that i have ever done in this company yet (and trust me, ive done a lot... :S) was i went thru 3 spreadsheets with like 3 columns of #'s and delete all the ones that arent needed... each sheet had like 2500-3500 values in each column... i was pratically blind by the time i got off work... :S but well it kept me busy for like a good 4 hours and a bit and it impressed my supervisor's boss so that's always good stuff! hehehe...

Mall Mebbe?

Ohhh i finally got around to going to the mall today... mostly cuz mom needed salt, and well cuz i desperately needed guitar books to learn from... except that frickin' store was so expensive i decided to wait and buy a "guitar for dummies" hahahaha... but that meanst waiting till the weekend before being able to hit up a chapters :( oooohhh gotta love Sunrise Records!!!! 2 cds for $21!!!! so obviously i got the 1st 2 albums of GC...... and damn am i proud! too bad chronicles of life and death was selling @ 17.99 and since i checked sony's site yesterday and they were gonna have a new release of the album with a dvd on the 28th, i might as well wait for that.... wow... its been sooooooooo long since i've bought a cd! i think the last actual cd that ive bought was prolly LP's reanimation... which was like way back in HS at least.... so thats like in 3 years! well i feel damn proud.... i know ive said i'll always support the bands that i like by buying their cds... but when you like as many bands as me...and when they have albums out so often... it kinda adds up!... well anyways... i'll prolly buy chronicles of life and death sooner or later anyways... hehehe i am getting paid tmr!!! yay! wow... so sad, this is like the 1st offical paycheck where i'll be saving up $$, ive already pissed away like 2 months of work.... :'(

NFG & Music

Ohh, i gotta admit, that NFG *isnt* that bad... i do like their songs.. well i guess its more like im okay wit their songs... i dont love it, but i dont hate it... but ive realized how much all these punk bands sound alike (not the ones that i really like) Mest, NFG, All American Idiots... etc... theres like a whole bunch more... like i cant separate the lead singers voices anymore and the music sounds kinda similiar too... which doesnt catch my attention at all... oh well... but yeah... roberta suggested that i listen to NFG.... lol and kenny suggested that i listened to something corporate, and well mebbe it was just the order of the songs.. but the 1st 3 i listened to were kinda really slow & boring.... i cant stand boring songs... :S (boring, not slow & emotional!) and i take back my earlier statement about not liking green day, i gave them another shot and they are pretty good..! heheh i really think it helps to just listen to them and not see them... cuz billy joe kinda reminds me of hobbits... lol.... and thats not a good thing.. hahaha.... and i cant believe ppl claim that pieces sounds like the scientist from coldplay! they sound completely diff! one's super catchy and the other isnt.... its just coldplay! (i use to like them before i realized all their songs were just slow and boring...) i mean come on, if all rock songs that have a piano intro in it or whatever sounds the same, then its not just pieces, its all these other songs !... oh well

No More CD's?

Yeah the reason why i dont buy cd's is that my Hi-fi is broken... is there a more "cooler/recent" term for it?? lol personal sound system? lol... yeah .... the spinning rotation thing is broken... and banging on it helps make it spin properly (it only spins a certain way so sometimes certain slots wont be read by the player cuz it never gets there) but i think i was too harsh on it so i prolly slightly busted the cd reader thing too... i think it has become incapable of reading disk 3... lol.... it was actually fine for a while!!! damnit! well it doesnt look all nice & silverish, but hey its actually not that bad, and there's a lot more functions on it than the one i bought for my mom, cuz i can use the stereos here for my TV as well as for my comps....(it has an audio out thing) actually thats how im listening to music right now cuz my actual comp speakers are inside loo... anyways its 7 i think i need to practice some guitar..... ive been putting it off a couple of days already cuz i was waiting to get book.. on a very last note... can u believe ive completely used up all the space on my notebook!?!?!? wth!!! i was down to like 718mb, so i think my comp automatically stopped the dl from BT.... thats what i get for being greedy and dling 2 diff anime at the sametime & then some more other stuff.... crap i better have enuf room to fit one piece naruto and bleach! that or i just need to speed watch some stuff and clear it out of the way.... okay okay i gotta go !

Making the Band

2005-03-14T17:53:00.000-05:00

Woo! My first offical post here... if i werent lazy, i would use my spiffy html skills to make this page look nice... but since i am a lazy bastard... i will change it later on when i have absolutely nothing better to do.... tehehehe.... so im moving over from xanga... cuz well xanga's kinda annoying... :S but i dunno.. im not use to this page yet... for one, it takes forever to load... but then again mebbe thats just me... but yeah... im use to typing out like prolly 3 or 4 big paragraphs depending on how my day went so basically it'll be filled with tones of thoughts & stuff everyday, unless i forget (usually the weekend... hehe) I would post the last couple of posts from my xanga account over here... but its kinda really really intense stuff... a lot of my deep and unhappy thoughts were written down... so.. i dont think anyone would be interested in reading it anyways cuz its almost a guarantee of being a shocker.... :S

Work is starting to pick up again... which is great news cuz i wont be bored... well for the next day or two??? thats how work is... i'll be painfully bored for like a week or two with nothing much to do and then i'll have like tones of work from like all 3 departments.. i dont mind it... i love it actually... keeps me busy so time goes by faster.... i should have stayed today to finish off one of the jobs cuz i was already OTing cuz of the longass meeting... but i wanted to go shopping for some guitar books and buy a couple of Cd's... i didnt end up doing that cuz the sheppard bus came faster... (i later found out that the 190 rocket was like right after us and sped past us on the way out... :@) and i came home to realize that my dad's home... damnit... i should have stayed and OTed a couple more hours.... :S oh well....

I wanna do so many things... that involve $$... lol... but ive already WAY over spent what i budgeted already for this 4 months on like fluff (stuff that i want but arent essential... hehe.. the term's from online MUDS... hehe) i will definetly get a pet next time around... provided that i can luck out and find a job again... but hey, i might as well just stay with OTPP... its a lot... easier... hehe... and im pretty sure my track record is pretty good @ this point... hehehe

The urge to get a tattoo on my arm is sort of overwhelming me... i cant fight back what i want with my "logical" side anymore... which wouldnt be that bad, cuz that means i can get like a pair of tattoos on my back too.... im gonna get so inked up by the time im 30... it'll be crazy... but damn, i dont have a 100 bucks to waste on a tattoo :'( so sad...! well mebbe i do "IF" i get my tuition back from that stupid previous term... man, me and my laziness... such a bad habit... :S

Not much else to say... prolly go shopping tmr... and go practice guitar now... hehe..... cant let roberta bring me down... i'll make a band before im 30!!! i dont care if im too "old"... hehehe

The Harangue of a 16 Year Old.

The End.

Stressed

Hrmmmm....

Guys PMS too... Luckily, I have my Yammers

Another Late Night Posting

Sudden Changes

Cry_Wolf

A Hole In My Mouth?

Woodbine Beach Pics

Offically the last day of summer!

Working?

Woodbine Pics

Beaches, Nature's Weapon Against the Internet!

A day @ the Island

End of 3rd Year Bus.

In the Blink of an Eye...

Post TKD

Straightjacket Feeling

Spammy Viruses

FUCKING HELL...

Pics...

Car Crash that stalled us for 2 and half hours...Anti Flag - as you can tell.. im not a big fan... lolJimmy Eat World - i would have to say better live than CDGreenday - knows how to rock our asses off!Me & Kenny on the Ride Home.....

Starting Summer Off with Greenday!

Third Year Over

Rememberance

Stressed

(intro to suspense music) dun dun dun! (outro)

The Failure That Is Me

Yes, i am bored.....

False Freedom

...

My Underwater Adventure

The Beginning of the End

The Life of a Schaffer Student

Long Vent part 2

Long Venting part 1

The Hell Day

FUCKING HELL GROUPS

Fat & Smelly People Should Die

Lego My Starwars

The Trip that Broke Me

The Zehrs Marathon

Procrastination Should be a High Paying Job

The Awesomeness That is the Roomie

I have found a husband!

The Procrastination that is Video Gaming

The Evil That Is The Credit Card

If I Were Anymore Broke, I'd Prolly Use Up $$ For My Next Life Too

The Calm Before the Storm That is Laurier 3rd Year

Hardcore Racing

I'm Addicted, Are You?

Power Outtage

Laurier Does Something Right

Freeeeee I Say!

Best Roomies EVER!

Lord of Forgetfulness

Again, If My Brain Wasn't Attached

The Trio Strikes Again!

Jokes are on the House

Orlando Bloom is Beautiful

I Feel So Violated

FUCKING LAURIER

The School that is Disgraced

A New Hair

Road Home

Weekend Fun-in

Meat supplements!

Mmmm.. Potatoes

The Evil That Is Publishers

The Long Trek

1st Day

Prison - Day 1

Transition

Nothing-to-do-ness

Clutz - Guitarist for The Gigs

WTF

Lost & Found

Im in Love!

Simplicity @ its Best

Car Crash that stalled us for 2 and half hours...

Anti Flag - as you can tell.. im not a big fan... lol

Jimmy Eat World - i would have to say better live than CD

Greenday - knows how to rock our asses off!

Me & Kenny on the Ride Home.....